Thursday, December 31, 2009

A Decade Already?

I wrote a review of 2009 but then I thought I shouldn't post it. I think I should leave the year behind. I overall don't like 2009 but I have to give it some credit! I reunited with family, I am a graduate student. Ups and downs with boyfriend.

Mohammed, Menna, Sondos and Wessam started their own blogs.
I met GREAT bloggers!

I got paid for the first time in my life. I embraced my red heels. My cousin got engaged and the other one is almost married. I cut all my hair off. And I stopped dying it so you can see all the greyness. I acquired some really bad habits (especially being the health freak I am) I stopped working out.

Resolutions? I want to spend more time around older people, and younger people. I want to try new things, and stumble and fall and learn (inspired by the younger) and I want to learn from what other people have gone through (older people)

I want to travel. And I want to explore my beautiful country.

I still catch myself saying "when I grow up" I just did that now..I was telling my brother "when I grow up, I'll take you to Switzerland" he said "when's that going to be?" In a witty, sarcastic tone.

I am not sure when it is that I want to get married, I know this is a matter of fate and all that.

I still cry when I think of my grandfather. I rarely ever watch television anymore and I am not as addicted to the internet..but I am addicted to farmville! I have attended great concerts in 2009 and I am intending on attending more.

I will explore the world more now. And I will remember that you are only blind to things if you chose not to see them with your heart. I will write more. And I will believe in myself more. I will leave my cloud and come back to earth every now and then. I will take better photos! Thank you camera for being a good one!

You know what? My dad GROUNDED me yesterday and took my sim card away. Now seriously...I'll just let him exercise some power on me. I know it will pay off later on...Even though I wanted to shout "I am twenty-freaking-two, I shouldn't be even living with you!!" I just looked at him, calm and composed "okay...yes...ok, here's my phone." I know, I know..I am looking at the bright side of things..

I hope you all have a great new year, and if you are intending on drinking, don't drive PLEASE! And don't text or call any exes. Drink enough water when you go back home. Or on the 1st. If you are staying in (like yours truly!) suggest some movies?

Monday, December 28, 2009

On Brilliance

On the fourth of March would be my bloggiversary! I am kind of excited. I have made a lot of friends during the past 9 months. I have received a lot of gifts and cards and love, and I have sent love but not enough gifts and cards. Shame on me!

Is it resolution time yet? I think it is. But then as Randi said, I am in a rut- and everything I think or do or say is influenced by it scares me.  am too scared to make resolutions. And I can't even write in my journal! But since I didn't have a Christmas wishlist... I have one wish that I would have realized very soon!

I have always wanted to own one of these gorgeous pieces!
Aya El Rakhawy, is a lovely designer!

wearing her own design (earrings)

In our culture, the Kaf, is very significant...and I think it makes a beautiful addition to "oriental" jewelery!
A few examples of her brilliant pieces:

That little hand is the kaf! The Kaf and the blue eye and blue in general is believed to keep away the evil eye. I don't know if such beliefs are essentially Bedouin, or routed to the fellahin, or overall Egyptian. But you just find them all over traditional Egyptian jewelery.

Don't you just love this ring?

The one in the middle is my initial! I love these!

So I am going to spoil myself for new years and buy me some of her designs! There's no point of saving up, really...If any of you want to join me please do!! Here's a link to the event.

Maybe I just need to spoil myself. I have a very strong desire to be alone, but then I know that's never good...GAH!

What are your new year's resolutions?
What do you think of her designs?

Sunday, December 27, 2009

A First at Twenty-Two

I am doing my commenting as I write this!
I've had a very...weird weekend. And none of it was planned.

Thursday morning I wake up at 10, and my father was getting ready to go get some paper work done (we got a new car) so I join him in hopes of renewing my passport..which I ended up not doing but oh well.

We head towards the citadel then my dad suddenly decides he wants me to drop him off and go meet his cousin, her fiance and a couple of their friends alone. So I do it, willingly...

I take them to Ibn Tulun, and they are very nice people!! The last time I'd seen my dad's cousin was about 10 years ago- if not more! After that we head to Khan Khalili, my dad joins us...then leaves me, again, behind. But I enjoyed it a lot!!

After they finish their shopping I offer to drop them off in Maadi and I was invited to join then for Christmas dinner. I spend the evening with my dad's cousins, their sons and friends..I loved it!! This means I have 4 cousins added to my extended family!

As I was getting ready to leave, my cousin asks if I can drop him off at another cousin's place, and I do, he gives me his number and leaves...3 minutes later I call him "please come to the side" and I am shaking! I am shaking so hard...I didn't know what to think or how to react...I crashed into a guy on a scooter- head on...

It was ugly. My first accident...

And people were gathering...all against me. I was wrong, but so was he- the guy on the scooter. He's fine. It was a long, long night. But I made friends with my cousins.  The next day they call me up to check up on me...and my head is all confused. I still am confused. And I am begging for my clarity. (boyfriend was there for me...)

Thank you all for your comments...I really, really, really appreciate them! I promise. I know you care. I want you to know that I care too!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Dot Dot Dot

I don't know if I am depressed.
Or if it is a lack of productivity..
Maybe it's the fact that nothing lasts...because honestly...nothing lasts.

Forever is a lie.

I am anxiously waiting for my grades and my pessimism is not helping...I need to talk to someone I don't know. Maybe they won't judge...they won't have a bias...or a pre-analytical view of whatever it is I am saying.

I am sorry to be writing such negative thoughts on Christmas eve...but hey! Merry Christmas everyone!!
It was my cousin's engagement party last night and the photos are on my sister's camera
(my sister always misplaces her things)

My semester officially ended as of Monday, you'd think I should be happy..I don't seem to figure out why I am not. But oh well...

I'm back.
Not "me" but back

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Kolena Laila كلنا ليلي

(We are all Layla..or Laila. If I had to choose a name, I would choose Baheyya. The name that represents Egypt.)

You see, there's this girl in my head that I envy. I envy her for her parents allowing her to travel with her friends, and her boyfriend.
A girl I envy for going to do her masters abroad.
A girl I envy for going on an AIESEC internship.
A I envy for her comfort she finds in her own skin.
A girl I envy for so many things.

For her slim figure maybe, or her ability to not conform to the pressure. I envy so many girls for so many things really.

All the girls are not me.

I don't know what I am envied for, really. But I have one thing to complain about- my lack of freedom. My lack of freedom to choose, or to go away, the lack of freedom to travel. And the reason? Over protective parents maybe? Or ones that are tied by societal shackles, no matter how outdated they are.

I can also complain about the eyes I find following me as I walk down the streets.

I don't know if, in that, I am taking part in the way to a better society...but complaining about things is a start right?

I asked Dr. Ali Hadi and Dr. Abdel Aziz Ezz El Arab yesterday whether they see potential in our generation, they both said yes. Coming from two great men that's something huge!! They said we have the practical means that no one had before.

I said but we lack the dream.

Please dream. Please!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

The Some(sum) in the Whole(hole)

My head is a very strange place. And it has dark corners and secret hide-outs...

It has memories so clear and ones that I'd rather forget. I'd rather forget many, many things. I sometimes think if that would mean that I would have chosen to be someone else if the choice was to be mine..

Would I? Would you?

People pay attention to the wrong words. They do...
That's the point though, to hide the meaningful amongst a pile of meaningless...and it would only stand out to those who matter. To those who deserve to see it. It would reveal itself and you need not make the slightest effort.

You see? Do you?

Is it liberating to meditate? Or is liberation in itself an act of meditation- detachment. Sand, sea, pen and paper. Sun- or not. Just a mind that is de-cluttering... clouds disappearing and finally; clarity.

Is it clear? Is it possible?

I wish I were free...and that you were too. I think of how we would act in such freedom. In a lack of obligations. In total abstraction. Do you ever think how that would feel like and how that could be? To float?

Monday, December 14, 2009

Books that you should read

I have book recommendations:
  1. Whatever happened to the Egyptians?- Galal Amin
  2. Whatever else happened to the Egyptians?- Galal Amin
  3. Beer in the Snooker Club- Waguih Ghali
  4. Season of Migration to the North- Tayeb Salih

1 and 2 are non-fiction and they are translated from Arabic, Galal Amin is a prominent Egyptian's on amazon though. I enjoyed reading them a lot. The explain why my society is how it's like today- it's a bit too realistic for my taste, however.

Beer in the Snooker Club was written in English, by an Egyptian Copt who lived in England and eventually commit suicide in 1969. You can view it as an autobiography in disguise. It's a beautiful book!!

Season of Migration to the North is based in Sudan and it tells the story of a man going through identity crisis if I may say, al Tayeb Salih passed away earlier this year and the book was translated soon after (or at least I began seeing the translated copy soon after!)

Well, I know these aren't the books an average reader would read but they provide insight to a society...they're not an "Alexandria Quartet" sort of thing.. Beer in the Snooker Club and Season of Migration to the North make great Christmas gifts too!

Bits and bits!

I lost a follower today.

I didn't attend the concert in Alexandria, but I am attending the one here in Cairo!! It's tomorrow at the Sawy Culturewheel in Zamalek for all those who are in Cairo. Please come! Concert is at 8 pm.

I have met the guys- briefly (Autostrad band from Jordan) and it was the first time for me to meet any Jordanians... I wanted to ask how different it was to live under monarchical rule but thought it would be very awkward of me. To just randomly ask that.

So yes, I know all I write about now is university stuff- but I got my study questions today and....UHHH I have a ton of readings to do for my economics final.

I need the proper credits for this! here

I'll be back to proper posting after the 20th, yay? January is almost here!!! Liz is coming! Oh so very excited!

Inspiration! via here.

Relationship Question: is age just a number? What about religion....and nationality? Values, culture and beliefs?

Saturday, December 12, 2009


  • I am almost entirely disconnected from the internet world...well apart from my farm..on farmville that is- not ashamed to admit that!!
  • I have a final on the 20th and a paper to submit on the 19th. My thoughts? I am scared. Because I want As...I am scared. Very, very scared.
  • But my uncle Steve reminded me today- that you are in control of your own happiness.."remember Godot" he said! I have a very wise family, you see! I have 3200 words to write in a week...doable?
  • I miss going out with my friends.
  • I miss my blog. I miss you, fellow bloggers! 
  • I have one Christmas card left to send.
  • I miss Alexandria. I've had grilled fish two days in a row today!

beautiful Alexandria- my own photo.

How is everyone? Let me know!! I need your good luck wishes...I do.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Because it is all a puzzle afterall

Meet my best friend... Menna . New to the blogging world.

I don't know if you can tell- or if I can tell for that matter- how and why we're best friends. It just is. You know things that just are?

Yes, it just is.

I've been very busy with uni work. And it's very, very hectic- but I procrastinate...a lot. I've also been busy adjusting to the fact that my father now lives with us. It's a bit weird. And a bit of a burden to be honest. Because it's one more person at the top of the hierarchy but it's okay. He's my father and I love him.

I've been mistaken for my mother in one of the photos of her as an 18 year old (maybe) and it was a serious shock for me. I know I look like my mother's side of the family- but not like my mother!

click to enlarge.

I am obviously craving salmon maki....and sashimi. The boyfriend has this big concert today with a Jordanian band who I am very looking forward to meet!!! I'll get him to post about it here (to make up for my lack of posting)

that's the event's poster...

Is it just my account that won't let me upload pictures through URLs?

Thursday, December 3, 2009

My Sister

As a thirteen year old, I think I wanted clothes and CDs for my birthday and maybe a book or two. My sister is such an airhead!

We're forcing her to read (Twilight...) My other sister and I  (we're the older two of the bunch) are going to buy her the books...instead of Jonas brothers blah blah.

Thirteen is such an awkward age.

I am sorry about my last post..

How is everyone counting down till Christmas? I should be sending my cards today :)

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


Emotional times.

We visited my late grandfather's best friend on Sunday; such a great man...a great man who has so many interests and has witnessed a lot of changes and achieved a lot of things. This 70-something man cried. He cried when I told him he reminded me of his best friend, my best friend- my grandfather :)

Boyfriend issues have been solved. I hope for good.

I felt lonely. Scared. Scarred. Cold. Angry. I felt longing for the days when my grandfather was around. I felt hatred. Towards many things.

My therapy? Just anyone to tell me it's going to be okay. And my favourite bookshop.

I felt like I hated this body that I am stuck in. Like it didn't belong to me. No one asked me before I woke up to find this...I was perfectly normal. And suddenly...curves. Boobs and thighs and a round bottom...could someone have just asked? I would have prepared myself for that. I know it's strange for a twenty-two year old to say that- given that the day I am talking about was almost ten years ago...

I had to let this out. I hope you are having better days.

TODAY WAS JEN'S BIRTHDAY! Happy birthday beautiful :)

oh and my dad comes home today.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Eid!! (vegetarian warning)

First of all, I tried to make this post through google wave but it didn't seem to work out. I added bloggy and tweety!

I should be asleep now since tomorrow is Eid El Adha (my dad is in Hajj- and will be here on TUESDAY! I miss my daddy!) I've "hajjed" three times :) thanks to him. I am thankful for my father, he's paying for my degree as well!

Eid el Adha, if you are not performing/in hajj means:
  • Waking up by 5:30
  • Meeting friends at dawn and heading to the masjid for eid prayers
  • Breakfast with friends.
  • Calling everyone up wishing them a happy eid
  • Lunch with family.
  • Repeat for the next 3 days except for the waking up early and prayer part. (and breakfast- and you can have lunch with anyone really)
Well, Adha literally means sacrifice, so we usually sacrifice a sheep or a calf...keep one third of it and give the rest to as many people as possible- people who cannot afford it. I don't really like mutton but my mum and grandmother make YUMMY fried liver slices. YUMMY, I TELL YOU!

  1. You need sliced liver, salt garlic (crushed/ground) black pepper, cumin, vinegar and flour.
  2. Mix salt, pepper cumin and 5 tablespoons of vinegar  (you can add ground green peppers as well!)
  3. Marinade the liver "fillets" in that for up to 2 hours
  4. Coat with flour
  5. Fry!
You want to see our Mr. Stinky? We met him today for the first and the last time, and I don't think I'll be able to eat his liver...even though the flash on my camera made him seem mean.

PS Happy belated Thanksgiving to all those who celebrate(d)
PPS I didn't mean to offend any vegans/vegetarians.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

A Birthday Post!

Missy, you deserve a post of your own.
Because you are twenty-two.

And that's a blah year (after the big 21..and the jump from teens to twenties that is 20!)

But you will never have a blah year, or at least that's what I hope for you. I wish you never have a blah year- ever! You are now as old as I am! How amazing is that?

This is for you.

I hope you make all your wishes happen (here)

And here's a teacup full of love for you

Love you Chels!

This week was also Kristin's birthday!! Spread the love everyone and wish these lovely girls a special year!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


I just realized the amount of books I have on my shelf... and the tens of them there for me to read. Maybe I should do this. This plus working on my research paper (due December 15th)

My little sister turns 13 on December the third!! THIRTEEN...and it's almost Eid :)
Yet, I prefer the other Eid to Eid el Adha....mainly because the streets smell of sheep this Eid.

I love how thanksgiving is on Thursday and Eid on Friday- talk about festive!

Wow, my thoughts are definitely fragmented and I am feeling far from productive and my back hurts. I want to go to the gym and stop whining about it. I am not happy with who I am these days. Does this come with being almost halfway your 22nd year?

I'd hate to think so. I'd like to think it's about being unemployed. Yet, I wouldn't consider myself unemployed since I am not really looking..

Maybe I should write a letter to myself.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Early Bird

New blog: here
Check this and be inspired!

There was a point in my life when I used to watch Lizzie McGuire... and I thought Gordo was cute, with the hair and the voice!
Where is he?

Aren't they cute? Through here

Sometimes I miss being younger, and all the awkwardness that was just almost totally awkward. And at the time, it's your worst nightmare, why and how I miss it now, is beyond me! All those moments that could have been something very different, and you think about it now and think what if...or maybe it's just me? It probably is. Because I am stupid like that.

I got my grade...
*drum rolls*
I got an "A-/B+" which I consider a B+ and I am disappointed. I wanted an A. But I can still get an overall A right?

One of my favourite songs! here

I got up early today to fix my sleeping pattern. And by early, I mean 5 am!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

A festival gone bad

I don't know why I haven't been updating my blog, and I haven't been catching up on my reader either.

On Friday I went to this festival that I usually go to, but then stopped, because it has gone too commercial for an underground music festival.

I still believe so.

But one of my favourite bands was performing, a reunion performance, and it was...heavenly. It was seriously divine. (The band is Eftekasat) they play oriental jazz instrumental songs. LOVE! [myspace]

Another band I like, Bad Apple, a rock band, was singing a rather obscene original song, you know what they did? the organizers cut them off, we could only hear the music and the song is actually a good one!! [myspace] And that was that for me, I mean with the festival..

Yes, I do have a very eclectic taste in music.

I am hoping to get my economics grade today...wish me luck?

Oh and a huge thank you goes to everyone who prayed for my cousin, or sent him positivity, he had his operation six days later than I thought he'd have it but it was a success!!

Thursday, November 19, 2009


What happened in Sudan yesterday was sad. Sad...and just very, very sad...I can't find the words to express how I feel about it...but it was just very...barbaric.. and I don't mean that in the discriminatory sense of the word.

We lost. But that's not what's making me sad. In fact, this and this. I had friends in Sudan who we couldn't reach, Egyptian celebrities contacted live talk shows saying their buses were being attacked...

It just breaks my heart..the violence. On both parts, I am not going to be biased..but then...oh, Egypt!

I was guest blogger yesterday at Shokoofeh's! Check my post here.

I found this.

The only good thing about yesterday was the fact that my professor liked my proposal and I am going to present it to the class today! Wish me luck :)

This world needs to learn how to see beauty.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

So Today...

I love my friends.
I love my friends for so many reasons!
One of the reasons why, is a day like today, and a conversation like the one we had today.

Ok, it was more of an argument....and we were loud.

So we were sitting there at my favourite coffee-shop and it started by my arguing that I think marketing (some marketing) is unethical. We were sat there, a law major, an economics major (yours truly), a political science major and two marketing majors.

Then it moved to something I am somehow passionate about, the evolution of the Egyptian political system, and the law major (Menna) was justifying Nasser and sort of standing up for him in a way, Wessam and I were more for King Farouk, the marketing majors chose to remain silent.

Then we moved on to the origins of a state!! As a political organisation that is...and Wessam and I were arguing that philosophers (Plato and Aristotle- and Rousseau) are in a way politicians, (we were then joined by another law major) and the law people argued that the state was formed by law. I say politics.
Now, I have to credit the marketeers! Who, as the argument reached it's climax, proposed that we form a team of lawyers and that of social scientists (if I may call us that!) and they should market our point of views! How creative is that?

As we were joined by even more law majors, we became louder and louder, and eventually the discussion took a nationalist course, and how the qualification match was turned into a nationalist cause and a marketing opportunity! (will post about that later) and how we think it is sad. Watch this: a touching embodiment of unity!

lawyers in the making

I am not showing my friends off really, but I am rather expressing my pride in the potential we have. The potential that we, as youth of a developing country, have but cannot really realise. Due to the fact that we are driven to believe we have not the means to realise the great potential in us!

my very own musician! he wasn't there though...

We are such a powerful driving force! We are revolutionary! And of that, I am proud :)

Even though we have to accept the fact that we are only human (that applies to everyone!) we should also realise that humans have such great power! We are superhuman in a way, only if we choose to be!

Rise up, and change your world. Promise.

PS We are fun people, not always geeky/nerdy/whatever you would like to call it!

Monday, November 16, 2009


I've been given the Kreativ Blogger Award by Athena, Janice, and this very lovely lady!

here are the rules:
one. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
two. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
three. Link the person who nominated you for this award.
four. Write seven things that a small number of curious folk might be interested in.
five. Nominate seven Kreativ Bloggers.
six. Post links to the seven blogs you nominate.
seven. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they have been nominated.

seven facts: 
  1. I have 201 followers now and that is making me insanely happy!!
  2. I am not a big fan of football (due to ignorance...really) but the fact that there's a chance for Egypt to qualify for the world cup is AMAZING! I am so excited, but the fact that the corporate sector is capitalizing on people's sense of patriotism and nationalism is irritating me. A lot!
  3. I cannot drive a manual gear car.
  4. Studying for my master's degree has made me think about and question things I have never even considered before.
  5. Oxymoron. I love.
  6. I love my country and my family. In fact my family plays a HUGE part of my life. My cousins are  closest friends, and in that Menna becomes family (Menna knows who she is)
  7. I will write a book one day.
Dear Followers,
Feel free to consider this tag/award yours. I love you x

PS Two more awards/tags to go!!
PPS I have an UGLY headache. Any natural remedies?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Random Overload!

We all get our not so nice moments. I can be very mean, very, very mean sometimes...ask him!
I tend to lose my temper when under stress (don't we all?) and I get the worst mood swings, and ugly PMS.

I just thought I should let everyone know. I thought I owe everyone the fact, honestly. But then, there's beauty in the errors.

I miss my hair, I miss how it touched my shoulders, or how I used to check how long it has gotten while in the shower. Please, please grow out. I miss you hair!

Do you ever feel cold? Read this to warm your heart.Someone needs a friend.Friends are such a blessing. Such a great blessing. And family, too.
My cousin has gone in for an operation today and I need everyone to pray for him with me, they operated on his knee, but you see, football is his passion and he needs a perfect knee!

I finally sent the giveaway photos...FINALLY months later. I am sorry. I tend to get preoccupied. Right now, I am procrastinating. I should be writing my proposal and doing my readings. I wish citing and bibliographies were as easy as linking.

But I remember so many things when I am supposed to be doing even more things!

Afiori has a new line. And there's an ornament swap going on which I am part of even though I don't celebrate Christmas! I just thought it was a beautiful thing to do!

Oh, Paris, oh how I wish....

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Meet Mohammed

Or the boyfriend. Or the boy. Or the "almost" fiancé.

he's the one in the middle :)

The best friend I could ask for. The older brother I never had. The man with a beautiful voice. And a big, big heart.
He may not be James Marsden (YUMMMMMMMMM!) but hey, he loves me!

I won't begin to tell you how we met, or how we are such a weird couple (we could write volumes and volumes of books about our lives and arguments and jokes). Because we are. We are weird in that quirky a way that might make people laugh really...but it's fun and we love it. Because that's how we are. He tells me jokes no one else would laugh about and they crack me up!

That no matter what happens, it's always him. He even got me a promise ring (for my birthday)! And wrote me a song! (two actually!) and we are finally making it work out. That's how you do it, right? You work on your relationship!

You can't not like him, because...well he's funny and sincere and he just cares. And he is such a good friend! Even though it might be true that he leaves a not so good first impression.. He's a perfect older brother (we're both the eldest of four!) my little brother loves him (yes, that's important to me) OH, and he makes a mouthwatering tuna cake!
He has a really nice family; great parents, a sister 13 days older than I am, who I can call my very own (I miss you Sarah)

Sometimes he has temper problems, and when he does, he drives like a madman. He's also loud when discussing something serious (which is when he needs to be quiet the most, I guess)
Oh he parks perfectly, too! He was kind enough to teach me and that is why I don't park like a woman! I surprise myself sometimes!
Have I mentioned that he's just...amazing?

PS I have temper problems to, and he's just this nice- to absorb that. We compliment each other, you see

He has a blog  and this is his band's fanpage!

Books and Links x

You have to see this!! Thank you loveliest Iris! She has a beautiful blog, too! So this made my day today :)

All of you lovely people have been asking me what I am going to do next, after my professor told me I was/am in the wrong place...
I honestly don't know. I think I will go on with this, or maybe wait until this term's grades come out and see? What do you think?The thing is, if I want to do creative writing or any writing program, I will have to leave my dear country- I don't think my dad would let me. And I don't think I would be able to survive as long as it would take without my family.

Do you think having a career or a job in general changes you?

I got three books this week! Beer in the Snooker Club, Miramar, and Adrift on the Nile. And it is not by coincidence that they are all set after the 1952 coup d'etat in Egypt and tackle the social mobilization (or the lack of) that took place at that time as reflected on the different strata of the society.

I am not going to impose on myself a language I do not speak!

I will base my political science paper on literature!

Check this and this!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

A Silver Lining!

My political science professor didn't like my proposal.

He said it was a great proposal for a reflective paper, and that it had a great creative sense to it. But it wasn't a good proposal for an analytical essay.

But you know that every cloud has a silver lining right? YES!!

Guess what he said! He gave me the best compliment ever! He said "you are in the wrong place." I said "what do you mean?" he said, "You are in the wrong place, from the very first day I could feel it, you should be doing creative writing, I could even see it in your emails"

I said "wow...that is such a great compliment.... thank you!"

Yes, I love that man. Dr. Abdel Aziz Ezz El Arab, thank you for being such a great person. And thank you for your constructive criticism! Thank you!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009


I am addicted to Farmville! It makes me want to have a real farm/garden so bad! Add me of Facebook if you have the same obsession? You can still add me if you don't! Just let me know you added me through the blog okay?

Speaking of obsessions, I have quite a few!
I am obsessed with Vera Wang's Princess. I am obsessed with my hair (despite it's almost permanent unruly state)I am obsessed with being right. And with knowledge, I have to know everything which gets quite tiresome at times. I am also obsessed with my family. I love my family to pieces!

Speaking of my family, being the eldest of four, and having an almost thirteen year old sister (who has a Jonas Brothers obsession which I consider a sin, a disgrace and a serious lack of musical taste) and an eight year old brother, my house is usually more of a circus. Noisy and messy and just...hectic! I blame them (and the traffic) for my close to zero tolerance to noise.

What's your favourite livejournal community? And fall/autumn song(s)? (Missy, I asked this with you in mind!)

Oh, and Nasser is not making my essay any easier...why did he have to be such a contreversial person? I mean, I never even liked him, because my grandfather didn't, basically, but now that I have to actually write a whole research essay about anything Nasser related, I hate him for giving me so much trouble!

I still love you Egypt!

at the stadium- Fifa U20

view from the Cairo Tower
Both photos taken by me!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Weather and Economics

For Kristin:

Florida, even Cairo is a bit (Relatively) chilly now! will you do that please? You can keep the sun, because it's sunny in Cairo (mostly) so please for Kristin's sake (and mine!) stop being so warm!

It was a full moon last night, and yesterday, the clouds were very cotton-candy like. And they were so close I could touch them! In fact, I have touched clouds before, when my grand father took us to Switzerland, my sister and I touched the clouds.

Of suns and skies.

A while ago, I argued with someone about applied rule and act utilitarianism. I don't know if you are familiar with the terms but rule utilitarianism is what John Stuart Mill believed in, that if it is not right, then nothing could justify it. whereas, act utilitarianism (Bentham) is basically "the purpose justifies the means", if it's for the general good then just do it.
When it comes to my values, I am strictly rule utilitarian...and it leaves me with one of two problems, either I can't please people I am supposed to please, or I go against my values...

The sun is out and the clouds are pretty, I am staying in because of a mood swing and TONS of studying to to, it turns out that the grad-school business is not easy after all! Very time consuming and demanding and...just challenging! I am not used to that...I am used to everything being feasible and relatively easy!

How is your Tuesday everyone?
PS I have tons of awards that I am saving up for one or 2 posts! yay?