We visited my late grandfather's best friend on Sunday; such a great man...a great man who has so many interests and has witnessed a lot of changes and achieved a lot of things. This 70-something man cried. He cried when I told him he reminded me of his best friend, my best friend- my grandfather :)
Boyfriend issues have been solved. I hope for good.
I felt lonely. Scared. Scarred. Cold. Angry. I felt longing for the days when my grandfather was around. I felt hatred. Towards many things.
My therapy? Just anyone to tell me it's going to be okay. And my favourite bookshop.
I felt like I hated this body that I am stuck in. Like it didn't belong to me. No one asked me before I woke up to find this...I was perfectly normal. And suddenly...curves. Boobs and thighs and a round bottom...could someone have just asked? I would have prepared myself for that. I know it's strange for a twenty-two year old to say that- given that the day I am talking about was almost ten years ago...
I had to let this out. I hope you are having better days.
TODAY WAS JEN'S BIRTHDAY! Happy birthday beautiful :)
oh and my dad comes home today.