Monday, November 29, 2010

Quick Post

You know how sometimes you think of something and you feel something and try to speak of it to people and they never understand? And you just never talk about it anymore?

Like, for instance, when you meet someone, and then you fall for them and then you meet their friends, their really good friends with which they have memories, experiences, the friends that know them really, really well. And you feel jealous, not out of a weak sense of possession, and not out of lack of confidence or's just that you want to have that, too. You want to have existed in their lives for as long.

That's the feeling I once felt and tried to explain but no one understood. And yesterday, in words that are quite familiar, the mister was trying to explain- except that I knew exactly what he was talking about. And I think I was speechless, I tried not to show it, but I was truly in awe. He knows the feeling. 

This is how I know I am blessed.

(check my tumblr for credits)

Then this;
 It's you, plain and simple. So please, I beg of you. The next time you think that your life sucks, or you're about to say that to someone you know, think of that huge hole in the ground where all the other people are wallowing in their own depressing filth, and then look up at the sky and see the birds and the clouds and the endless blue azure shimmering through the skyline and ask yourself. Where would you rather be?  
 -My boyfriend

It's end of semester...stressful times, I will get back to this soon. Because I miss everyone. But I have a deadline on Wednesday and a paper that is not finished yet, I also still have to write a paper about Argentina and the role of the state..and two reaction papers, before the 15th.

And guess who is married? 
Lovely Randi! You looked beautiful!!
Micaela got married, too! 
Cait is back :)

Sunday, November 21, 2010

On Freedom

I have mentioned it here before that I lost my dear iPod classic, and I shall replace it someday. I lost academic papers, "writing", music, photos and films on that iPod.

Two or three years of my life. And I am to start over.

The thing is, it all seems quintessential, because I have to start anew, in real life, too.

This could be an early reflection on 2010; this year, my almost 3 year long relationship has ended, and now, I have something new. And I am happy with it.

I am free.

Free to start a new music library, to buy a new camera and start taking photos again, I am free to write new things, not having my old things to measure up to. I lost my "Drafts of a Suicide Note", probably the darkest thing I ever wrote, from when I was "depressed". I lost my Beatles discography, and the Cranberries, too. I lost photos of the summer when Jen and Pete were here. And of days when I used to see my best friend every day. I lost photos of my senior year.

I am not comparing men to iPods, I appreciate men. And I appreciate iPods, too!

It's just that, it all made me think, because losing my iPod made me cry. But I realized, that maybe it was time. It was right about time. So, thank you late iPod for your perfect timing, I now have to paint it, and I have a perfectly white, clean canvas.

I move my blog, too?
I am buying a new iPod, should I buy my third iPod classic, or try the touch?
I had a Canon SX110 IS, do I get the SX10 IS or do you have other recommendations?

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Reason(s) To Smile

It's Eid today. And I had a draft saved, saying how I had lost the spirit and everything, but then it all changed.

I did wake up in an off mood, then I decided I would take my brother and sister out. And I did.
I drove to Zamalek and picked a friend up, went to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf, I had my chai latte, and was HAPPY.

Then, remember how there was something I wasn't sure if I am to share yet? Well, the boy (man) joined us. (YES!! I met this amazing, amazing person!!) Even my best friend likes him! And as of today, my brother likes him, too.

We had sushi, then we went on a felouka (that's when my other sister and my cousin joined us). It was such a fun, fun day.

I am thankful for their presence in my life. Each person who was there today. I am thankful for my best friend's presence in my life. And my parents. I just feel thankful to have people who can cheer me up, people who can take me at my meanest, too. People who care.

On an entirely different note, I want this wedding. I say that a lot, but I really want this wedding!

Friday, November 12, 2010

A Week Later

  • Sometimes school can be overwhelming, especially when I am trying to balance that with so many other things. I am no trying to inflate my importance or anything.I just have the tendency to stretch myself and try to go to the gym after work, then try to see everyone, and please my parents, and study all in one day.
  • Also, I have encountered one great misfortune within the past two weeks, I am still mourning. But my iPod died. And it had every paper I have written, every photo I've taken and all the songs. Now, I am iPod-less. And I hate it. I have a new laptop though! Finally! 
  • Eid is on Tuesday, and so Eid break starts on Monday, I have a break ahead of me and it feel so great (despite the fact that I have to study...) 
  • I won Lauren's giveaway!! And I love everything in Shawnee's shop that I can't really decide (I am very indecisive)
  • There's so much going on, and I don't know if I am ready to share yet. Maybe when I am, I will. But I just need to share this: I couldn't be any happier. And I am just so thankful for that. 
  • Don't you just hate it when you are so disconnected at a certain point, and you go somewhere else in your head, think of things in far away lands, not because you don't want to be here, but because you so much want to leave a good impression and it's hard to stay "here"? I know I am not making sense. I am trying to. But I wasn't making sense to myself, either.

This was originally a post that wasn't in bullets, then I realized it was too fragmented. I can't think straight now. How is everyone? I sincerely would like to know :)
Oh God, this photo is just beautiful, and the colours and the light...perfect! I want that, I want to be there. Now.

Friday, November 5, 2010

I'm back!

It's Friday! The weekend is here and it is a great, great sunny day!
Friday also means Lauren's fill in the blanks (which I honestly reaaally love filling in)

1.   My last haircut was       in June, I trimmed my hair for my cousin's wedding  .

2.  My most daring hair moment was       when cut it all off to rid myself of the..."memories"     . 

3.  A hairstyle I'd never be brave enough to try is       full bangs     .

4.  I've always dreamt of being a (blonde, brunette or red-head)   a blonde! or have dirty-blondish hair  .

5.  My go-to hair do is       what my grandmother would call messy. I let it air dry and that's about it     .

6.  My biggest hair disaster was      my brother accidentally cut my hair for me- it was at its longest .

7.  A hairstyle I am dying to try is        pincurls   .

8.  My best hair day was       probably the first day after I get it cut     .

9.  The worst hairstyle I ever had was   when I coloured it myself in middle school.  

10.  My hair is       on the thinner side of hair, has this natural curl and yucky natural colour. I also have lots of grey hair      .