Monday, May 24, 2010

Manic Monday

  1. I am done with the semester.
  2. I am done with presenting my paper at the young scholars conference.
  3. I still have to go to work.
  4. I need a break
  5. This is killing me!

So, for a change, today I am taking my brother and my cousin's son out, since I no longer have to study/go to class after work!
I found this through here.

I am reading الصياد و اليمام by ابراهيم عبدالمجيد . He also wrote " No One Sleeps in Alexandria" which I read in English. I express myself better in English, I think in English...I read quicker in English and it's a shame that I don't master my own language...

So I am reading an Arabic book!

Make Monday a perfect day because it's never too late!

“…the ones mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing but burn, burn, burn like fabulous roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes ‘Awww!” – Jack Kerouac

I miss you, Miss Adventure!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Reflection time needed

I need to mention how I felt amazed and loved and...I don't know with all the lovely comments I got on my last post :)

I felt loved!

This weekend is a very weird one, or this week in general. I am free, but I don't feel like I am. I have been told that I take everything seriously and I have been encountered by a person's capability to hate.

I am incapable of hating anyone. I might dislike someone- but not hate them! Or so I think?

It's like reality is giving me a signal that it's time for a reality-check. It's time for me to take some time away and sit and reflect....see who I have become and how far (or not) that is from who I want to be.

Me? serious? That was my main fear- what was the only reason why I never wanted to "grow up"

On another note, I am taking part in this here and I am so excited!!

How do you reflect, if going away for the weekend is not an option for now?

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Right Out of My Moleskine

And so the end of semester has dawned upon us, and everything is dim light, everyone has blank stare on their faces - distant...thinking of the words to write, the deadline to meet and so on and so forth.

Last week, I met with this beautiful person who is my professor from last semester and had a very inspiring talk with him.... he just inspires me.

After I left, I wrote this;
I have a pen because it guards me- it guards me agains moments when I feel dry, or the fear of haing something to write and not being able to and then I forget about it.

They say artists bring about their own demise and so do people of genius.

I refuse to not stop and think. I refuse to look and not see. I refuse to not change.

He warned me against educated ignorance, he warned me against ridding myself of insight- of looking at things with purely theoretical eyes. Life is not theory and our society is far from one that would conform to a theory. A rigid theory. Because, no matter how much it lacks the mobility, it is a highly dynamic society.

I need to sit and reflect more, because life is beyond the practical matters.

What lies beyond those gates of practicality is where life begins...and I will not stand at the gates. I have the pass to go beyond them: the eyes of a wanderer- a wonderer- a dreamer : an agent of change.

The world needs more passion, the will to turn a dream into a goal, and to find the means to do so. You are not given means, you find them.

Dear Citizen of the World,

Find your means (not your way, it's okay to be lost)


How is everyone?

Saturday, May 8, 2010

A little late fill in the blank friday post

Thank you Lauren for choosing books! I couldn't miss this for my life! My semester is almost done and I feel like I have been struck with bad luck- also my grandma's sudanese friend read my turkish coffee cup yesterday and I swear it was the freakiest thing that has ever happened to me. Oh the weird ways of our universe!

1. My favorite book growing up was the "Anne of Green Gables" series and "fearless"!!

2. The funniest book I've ever read was "high fidelity" by Nick Hornby
3. The one book that has truly changed my life is as corny as it may sound; "the seven habits of highly effective teens" I read right after my grandfather passed away (at 15)

4. If you're looking for a real "tear jerker" you should probably read "The Timetraveller's Wife"

5. If I could meet any author living or dead I would want to meet; goes without saying: Milan Kundera!! And Ahdaf Souief.

6. The next book on my "to read" list is one of the 40 unread books I have on my shelf!

7. If I was snowed into remote cabin in the woods and could only choose three books to bring with me :"the unbearable lightness of being", "life is elsewhere" and "the map of love"

Monday, May 3, 2010

Lately :)

I am tired. And I am just so tired.

I keep thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking of right now, since my entire brain capacity should be directed towards the 2 papers I have to hand in on Wednesday - instead;

I think of pretty things.

I think of whether we really communicate any more. Not through the internet, but real communication. Do you really look into someone's eyes as you talk to them? Do you interact with people in person?

I think of my value added at work and how that would motivate me. If I feel that my value-added is significant.

I think of the beach. I think of my life. I think of all other things but my papers.

I love you and I need you all to wish me good luck ( I also applied for a fellowship that's worth (almost) USD 10,000- my sister did so too) there's a slight possibility that I graduate next year.

I miss you!

How are you, lovelies? I will make sure I do my commenting once I am done with this :)