I need hope.
I need to be able to define hope, maybe. Maybe walking down a quiet street with a clear mind should give me hope- but that wouldn't be hope, that would be peace.
Maybe writing in my book without being conscious of what people might think of me...because they're just so different- maybe I am the one whose different...but that wouldn't be hope, that would be confidence.
I need hope in an environment that lacks familiarity. That lacks definition and lacks things I want it to have. I don't know what I want to do with my life or where I want to end up. I have no idea what my greatest aspirations are. I might tell you big words because I know them, or because saying something is better than just saying "I don't know" when asked what I want to do with my life. No, I don't mean to impress.