Thursday, December 24, 2009

Dot Dot Dot

I don't know if I am depressed.
Or if it is a lack of productivity..
Maybe it's the fact that nothing lasts...because honestly...nothing lasts.

Forever is a lie.

I am anxiously waiting for my grades and my pessimism is not helping...I need to talk to someone I don't know. Maybe they won't judge...they won't have a bias...or a pre-analytical view of whatever it is I am saying.

I am sorry to be writing such negative thoughts on Christmas eve...but hey! Merry Christmas everyone!!
It was my cousin's engagement party last night and the photos are on my sister's camera
(my sister always misplaces her things)

My semester officially ended as of Monday, you'd think I should be happy..I don't seem to figure out why I am not. But oh well...

I'm back.
Not "me" but back


Barry said...

No need to apologize to anyone for feeling down Sara, moods and emotions don't instantly become positive with the holidays. I know a few people who feel as you do so you're not alone.

If you want to talk to someone you don't know who won't judge, I'm sure you have several choices. But I have an e-mail link on my profile and if the mood strikes you I'm a great listener, so I'm told.

Merry Christmas if you observe it and if not, well, Merry Christmas anyway! :)


Barry said...

Oops, forgot to mention. I rated this post "Loved it" not because I like to see you feeling down but because you speak what's on your mind, which I appreciate. (Your 'Changes' post on Dec. 1st is a good example).

Sarah Alaoui said...

i know that feeling and i hate that feeling, but it always passes dear sara.

April said...

I always feel guilty for feeling depressed on holidays, but really, they're just any other day, and I have to remind myself not to feel guilty. You should either. Hope things look up. :)

S.Elisabeth said...

We all have those days =( I hope things get better, Christmas miracle maybe? =)
If you want you could send me an e-mail? I don't know how much help I'd be, but it's sad to see you sad on a holiday like Christmas. it's

Fé... said...

Forever is a lie. Great realization. Makes you cherish everything because you know they can be taken away from you anytime.

And also, because you understand it's not eternal. You're not holding on too tight to it.

What's most important is what's within you :) That'll last forever.

sarah said...


i know how you feel. and as corny as this sounds, sometimes it takes the bad days just to make us appreciate the good ones even more.

nothing lasts forever. thats true. but i dont quite think i want something to last forever. things change because we grow. and even though some things have ended, i wouldnt want to go back to the person i was before


Mary Grace said...

Oh dear. The post-final, pre-holiday anxiety. I feel the same way too. I finished finals last week and my teeth are cringing!

Shokoofeh said...

I don't really know what to say my darling Sara. I am just trying to send some positive thoughts your way.

You're a strong girl, and I am sure you will find the way to be yourself again. And please remember that you're lots of people's inspiration.


Farah said...

Hey babe, I know how that feels. I am kinda in the same boat right now. But I know that it will past, well it HAS to anyways. So for now take it easy and take care of yourself love.


Selma said...

So glad you are back. :) In any kinda mood ;) And hang in there...the more you wait the longer it takes for the good news. And yes, I'm very positive about your grades and all. :)

Have a great Thursday!


missy. said...

forever can be a lie.. but sometimes it can be truthful. just depends on the situation and person... you ok? do you need an email vent sesh!? totally am here if you need it love.

merry christmas doll

Mohammed J. said...

ask me to listen and i will. just ask

Athena. said...

I love you sara, and I'm always here if you need to talk!
Merry christmas, beautiful.

Brownie said...

i hope everything is going fine wz u, we all go through depression moments we el hamdolliah nothing lasts for ever even depression ;)
Have a wonderful new year inshaallah

Maria-Thérèse said...

Do something you've never done before!

(and eat chocolate. it always helps.)

Merry Christmas!

Wessam said...
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Wessam said...

forever is in your head, may it be a minute or an eternity.

forever is a lie if we make it so

Wessam said...

things do end, but they can last.

Vivi said...

babe... you know I don't really know you... so I hope you also know that i'm here if you need to talk to somebody "you don't know".

Merry Christmas!


cairo, lusaka, amsterdam said...

I hope you feel better hun :) If you ever want to talk, let me know...I'd love to meet you! xx

Leaflet said...

I find dots magical and true!

we run in circles, don't we??

but some have this blissful talent to make worthwhile eternities and to create magical forevers.. relatively that is ..

beautifulnemo said...

Sara I just feel to hug you, but I can't. So I hope you can feel my hug somehow...
You can write me too if you want.


مى said...

cheer up, habibti :)
a new year's coming up and it's full of possibilities!

you are loved x

shelbyisms. said...

Pessimism is not the worst thing that has ever happened, fear not.

Caroline Cakewise said...

I know how you feel. Weirdly enough, I was feeling dejected and stressed by the end of Christmas day, trying to organise my New Year's Eve and feeling guilty for letting people down etc.
Sometimes it's alright to just let go of feeling that way, maybe.
Despite your Eve of doubts, I hope you still had a very merry holiday. You deserve it!! xx

MNZ said...

Here's a creative solution to the I-want-to-talk-to-someone-I-don't-know:

Be warned though, the ratio of normal people to morons is very low on omegle :( too bad really.

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Randi Lee said...

:-( This too shall pass! You're in a rut, but you'll pull yourself out of it! Because that's what amazing women like you do! said...


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