Tuesday, June 30, 2009

"I Wrote This For You"

This speaks to me:

You think you’re waiting for help.For someone to tell you what the right thing to do is.Even though, at the back of your mind, you already know what that is. So all you’re really waiting for, is a time when you’re forced to do it.

Last week-or the week before, Georgia made an amazing post on "It's just how I see things" you should see it. And you should read it. Very inspiring and colorful and uplifting!

Heartache just stretches
the boundaries of your heart.
I’ll fill it for you.
— Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson.

I hate to send you bad vibes. I do. But, things have been going worse for me...I am trying to look up..I am. 
But I keep going further down.
My boyfriend is performing with his band at the SOS music festival! And I can't wait. I am so proud of him. But my heart is not happy. I hope no one else knows how that feels, because it's an ugly feeling. I refuse to believe, though that this world is not a beautiful place. It is a beautiful place. And it has some amazing people. 
My father wrote me a letter, and I am waiting for it to reach me. I expect it to be here by Friday, which is kind of scary, it's all about Mohammed. How cool is my dad anyway? He wrote me a letter!!


Bambola said...

None of this sounds good. I hope things are ok. Life will get better, things might suck at the moment but life will get better.

If you need a stranger to vent to, feel free to just hit the reply button.

Bambola x

Anonymous said...

Oh no, everytime I visit your blog I leave worrying about you! I thought everything would have righted itself once you left your job!
You make me feel very bad for spending my time worrying about what colour to dye my hair!lol!
Have a hug ...*hug*

7upkels said...

i love getting letters!!
and by the way, that second picture is fantastic. i will be back often to look at it whenever i am feeling down :)

Anna said...

"But my heart is not happy. I hope no one else knows how that feels, because it's an ugly feeling."
darling, i just told my friend something very similar a week or two ago... it is an ugly feeling, very much so. : (
but don't worry, it won't last forever... we are too strong of girls! ; )
keep your chin up, buttercup, & know that i will be thinking of you! it's a feeling not many can understand. :/

Pixie July said...

Oh, I'm so glad you stopped by my blog so I could find yours! Your posts are introspective and thought-provoking at the same time. You seem absolutely lovely and I hope skiers get bluer for you! xx
PS. I love 'I wrote this for you' too.

Slices of Beauty... said...

All the best!
Love from London.

alissa said...

how does 'i wrote this for you' always have exactly the right words on the day you really need them?

Anonymous said...

Gracias Sara!!! Wow, I hardly ever win anything!!! I should go buy a lottery ticket :) Thank you very much, I will email you my address right away.
I am so very sorry about your heartache... unfortunately I have felt it more than once and can still remember what is like - fortunately we women are strong enough to take that and more, even if it hurts more than you think you can handle - just take one day at a time, don't plan for tomorrow just concentrate on surviving today.
I send you a big hug ~

georgia b. said...

i love that haiku.

i'm sorry dear girl. i want you to be happy. i hate to hear that you are struggling. is there anything at all i can do?

how is your camera? have you had a chance to use it yet? i have found that my camera and taking pictures has gotten me through some really rough days and dark places. i'd love to see you start posting some of your photography and using the art form as a therapeutic outlet.

even if you don't, i hope you can find some releif from your tough time. what a blessing that your father has written to you. what a cherished possesion that will be. hang in there, girl. we all love you and are pulling for you.

big hugs.

S.Elisabeth said...

Aw I hope everything gets better soon! Just keep your head high and keep reaching!

a mouse said...

*honesty is always beautiful*
when you say things.. you release
them and they cant hurt you anymore...
chin up little petal.. you are on the
right track. xoxoxo

kerri ní dochartaigh said...

wee lady, i wish you huge love and warm hugs


Soné said...

AWHH YIPAY, WE ARE THE SAME AGE! 21 WAS A GOODIE! i bet 22 is going to be better :)

thanks for wishing me happy birthday so sweet of you!
when will you be turning 21?

take care

Anonymous said...

Hey I totally can agree on you with the bad vibes thing. But its oke to not feel 100 % all the time. As long as you know that things will get better and that no matther what happens. Life is Beautifull. Someone once told me : That life is like a plant it needs sun and water in order to grow. Only sunshine in a life would end up like a desert. so sometimes a little drizzle is ok :) And im sure the sun isnt so far away either!

ps and how cool is your dad for sending a letter :D

Athena. said...

Oh, Sara!
I want to shower you with hugs,
I want things to get so much better for you,
it is the worst feeling in the world;
when I lost someone who was so close to me, I didn't know how to be happy again.
You'll get through, because we're all here for you,
and there's so much love for you!

spanky* said...

look up, look, right now! (i hope you're outside)...

there are clouds up there, and stars and suns & moons and planets... all of those things are magical & they can be all yours.

smile. we all have shitty days. they all end in sleep & in dreams.

:o) (ur dad does seem kool. i luv snail mail!)

nicole addison said...

alright, first of all this post hits home.. i love the first quote it's so very true. im sorry your heart hurts. i've been there before and although im not sure whats going on i can tell you things will be ok. the world really is a beautiful place..sometimes you just have to look a little harder than others :) hope you have an amazing day tomorrow dear. xoxo

Mr. Condescending said...

wow I forgot about real letters! I hope its good lol.

Cesc said...

I love that thing about floating in the dark! It's so darn true...and creepy!


Organic Meatbag said...

The bad times are only temporary, my friend... they will all pass...