Monday, June 29, 2009


I am writing this as I talk to my sister; Shokoofeh, a very lovely person.
She asked me to smile
and be strong
and be happy

I am writing this when I am in doubt.

but she made me certain, that through the distance,
you can feel.
You can tell if someone is smiling- or not.
And ask them to smile.
And they do.
She asked.
I smiled.

Thank you, sweet girl.
Also, thank you for making me check this

And with the lines "you are my sweetest downfall" on repeat in my mind.

I want this song to be played at my wedding:

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me
I miss you blog. I miss you all. I miss everyone I see daily. I have been distant. And emotional. Hormonal.
Do I have to mention how I feel about MJ's death?
On a lighter note! Remember my cousins? Jen and Pete are coming! On Thursday!!! I haven't seen them in 10 and 12 years respectively. I am so EXCITED!!!!


Miss B said...

I miss you, too. Even though you're mostly just conceptual (but then, aren't we all?).

Wave hello next time you're looking in the mirror, and maybe I'll see it from inside of my mirror.

With a long hug and a kiss...

Anna said...

i love your blog. & i love your honesty. it is beautiful.

& this is for you:
“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.”-unknown.


alissa said...

i hope you have a great visit with your cousins!

Shokoofeh said...

I'm so proud of my younger sister! :)
Thank you Sara, you really did it! remember?! making my day?!! ;)

love you

Anonymous said...

Awh you sound really sad! *hug* And I really miss your posts, but take your time and get through this at your own pace and in your own way.

And laugh a lot when you're with your cousins'll help you forget the bad stuff!

Micaela said...

yes smile. do smile.

Shokoofeh is a ray of absolute sunshine. I'm glad you have her.

I adooore those lyrics and think they'd be perfect for a wedding, esp. your wedding. Thanks for introducing me to those GORGEOUS simple words. I'd like to write them for my bf. thank-you sweet sweet girl who still finds reason and hope to smile.

alissa said...

hey! you tagged me? i can't seem to find it haha...

in company with sparkles said...

Hang in there! I know you are strong!
Emotion seems to get the better of us sometimes doesn't it? But there is always some other hope that we see afterward.