Saturday, February 27, 2010

Hope for the Hopeful

Yesterday my sister and I were on our way to the supermarket and I discovered (as I made faces in the mirror; Jason Mraz, I love you) that I can make a Mr.Bean face!! ha! Also, yesterday, my aunt and cousins were over and I left them and went to sleep, I think I needed to sleep. I woke up today and I need hope.

I need hope. 

I need to be able to define hope, maybe. Maybe walking down a quiet street with a clear mind should give me hope- but that wouldn't be hope, that would be peace. 
Maybe writing in my book without being conscious of what people might think of me...because they're just so different- maybe I am the one whose different...but that wouldn't be hope, that would be confidence.


I need hope in an environment that lacks familiarity. That lacks definition and lacks things I want it to have. I don't know what I want to do with my life or where I want to end up. I have no idea what my greatest aspirations are. I might tell you big words because I know them, or because saying something is better than just saying "I don't know" when asked what I want to do with my life. No, I don't mean to impress.


19 comments:

Farah said...

Oh dear Sara, I know what you mean........♥

Sab said...

Oh sarah.
Hope should be on the way. because I think a lot of people need it right now.

Caroline Cakewise said...

You always seem to be such a hopeful person already - I'm sure you shall rediscover it inside you. :) Your blog gives me hope!
And I love that picture a few posts ago of the girl in the sheets with the crown!! xx

BonBon Rose Girls Kristin said...

Looking at little ones always gives me hope!

April said...

I love this post with all my heart.

The Lewicutt's said...

I love your honesty here. It's difficult to pin point my greatest aspirations too. And I definitely don't know what I want to do with life. It's difficult to define those things. Especially when life and you are always changing. And being passionate about so many things, it's hard to pick "the one" you know?

I hope this makes sense to someone more than myself. eek!

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Cait said...

I love that last quote, Sara. I hope we can both keep tenderness despite the world's bitterness!

Unknown said...

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magnoliaamber said...

Hope for Sara! (Indeed, I feel you are so confident already. I should learn a lot from you...)

I do:)

have a nice day!

Lisa said...

Hello, I was just Blog-Hopping and ran across your blog. Very Nice!

Be Well...

Kayla said...

aw this made me want to cry. I feel exactly the same way. It is hard to be hopeful when you feel like everytime you take one step you fall back to. You will find your way, everyone does eventually. They have to.

Gracie said...

Your posts always make me think and bring so much insight. Hope...such a great word.

I hope you find your HOPE! It's in you. xx

Anonymous said...

Oh this made me sad....you seem like such an optimistic person though, I'm sure you'll regain your hope soon! Just make sure to keep positive people around you, and give the boot to people making you unhappy or negative! *hug*

Jennifer Fabulous said...

I hope you find hope...and I think you will.

You are in a really big turning point right now it seems and it's normal to feel this way. Transition periods are always the hardest...

Feel better soon, dear. Or at least as better as you can feel right now! xoxo

S.Elisabeth said...

Don't despair, because the moment you despair is the moment you begin to lose hope.
Whenever I feel like the world is a hopeless mess, I try to look up at the sky, take a deep breath, and try to consider life as a whole.
I do hope you find your hope and find your aspirations. And, hey, goals are lovely, but it doesn't make you less of a person if you don't always have them defined.

NabilaHazirah said...

I love the quotes. Thanks for sharing,it made my day.

atrisha puteri said...

I cried when i read those words.. cheers to me!

julialow said...

I can relate to what you feel. So many times I've needed hope, especially in the past two weeks. It's been torturous. The pain in my heart... just... sigh.

But I feel so blessed because I know there's always hope in Jesus, my God. He is my source of strength, and there's always true joy and hope in Him. I always cling on to that, and my days get brighter.

I hope things will get better for you, darling Sara. I'm sure it will. Chin up, dearest! And thank you for sharing those quotes, they're so uplifting! <3 God bless you always.