Hope for the Hopeful

Yesterday my sister and I were on our way to the supermarket and I discovered (as I made faces in the mirror; Jason Mraz, I love you) that I can make a Mr.Bean face!! ha! Also, yesterday, my aunt and cousins were over and I left them and went to sleep, I think I needed to sleep. I woke up today and I need hope.

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I need hope. 

I need to be able to define hope, maybe. Maybe walking down a quiet street with a clear mind should give me hope- but that wouldn't be hope, that would be peace. 

Maybe writing in my book without being conscious of what people might think of me...because they're just so different- maybe I am the one whose different...but that wouldn't be hope, that would be confidence.

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I need hope in an environment that lacks familiarity. That lacks definition and lacks things I want it to have. I don't know what I want to do with my life or where I want to end up. I have no idea what my greatest aspirations are. I might tell you big words because I know them, or because saying something is better than just saying "I don't know" when asked what I want to do with my life. No, I don't mean to impress.

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My week

So after the fill in the blanks come my ramblings.

Well, working for the government haven't been all that nice, it's been to weeks and we haven't been allocated yet, our induction should have ended this week but they're extending it for another week. I don't know if I want this honestly.

I have no time to study...or I am finding hard to adjust.
I am missing the Queen Rania event because of a job I haven't even started yet.

Yesterday it rained, and hailed and it was insane!! You see, the streets of Cairo weren't made for rain like that...so you could guess the amount of rain on the streets..poor favourite cafe's roof was dripping all over us. Thunder and lightening were surreal!

roof

street...

It was my first hail to witness and it was so much fun!! But trying to get back in the car without wetting my shoes and jeans wasn't- not the least bit! My mum got stuck in traffic for maybe 5 hours? Poor mummy, it was her birthday...

I wished I had enough credit to text Liz and tell her all about it..

Hello, perfect photo! here

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How was everyone's week?

Friday Tradition

Here are this week's blanks from Lauren!

1.  When I'm nervous I     bite my cuticles or throw my feet in the air (if I am sitting down)oh and twirl my hair round my finger   .

2.  My favorite item in my closet is     my liberty print shirts  .

3.       Going for a drive/walk        is my favorite thing to do when I need to relax.

4.  My favorite childhood memory is      my grand dad taking us to the Movenpick for pizza and pomme frites then swinging away   .

5.  Something you may not know about me is     that I have a fear of making decisions    .

6.  A true friend      is there- not always, yet whenever you want them to be   .

7.  Something I hope people think of when they think of me is     the girl with the genuine smile/ that makes them smile!    .

Dear February Women

This is dedicated to three of the most special women in my life...
In chronological order;
My mother (born on the 25th of February)
My best friend (24th)
My sister. (21st)

Dear Salma,

I don't know how it was like before you were born, I have no idea what we have in common, but I know we have a life in common- regardless of what we do and preach and practice. We could be reflections of the same identity maybe? But..happy 21st. Thank you for being born early enough for us to be able to gang up against anyone! Ha!


Dear Menna,

We go through shit. And we make it through. Thank you for being you. And for stepping into 22 soon enough to keep me company!I don't think I can think of enough words, so I thought this should do.

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Dear Mummy,

Happy **th birthday! tehe! Sometimes I am thankful for a young mother...even though sometimes it's not such a good thing that you can text (long, long texts), facebook message, email and all those things most mothers aren't really into. Oh and thank you for giving birth to the best sisters and brothers in the world. And for being proud of me. You are a good mother. EEEEK I can't believe I just said that.

Love to you all,

Sara

PS The photo is dedicated to all three of you. Love you!

Shoes and Sound

Yesterday I went shopping with my sister with the intention of buying clothes. I looked and looked and looked...well you see, I always ended up buying two books and falling in love with a pair of shoes...or two;

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Also found at Bimba & Lola...these are the pair I REALLY fell in love with. I want them so bad! But I need my mother to pay for that since I don't think I have the 600 EGP on me! too bad... The good news is that I am too spoilt of a first born that I am hopefully going to get them and forget about clothes.

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Have you seen this? I love it! I am back to feeling like I miss things that don't exist...and the need to get away, I think that is always there though, yet sometimes I manage to ignore it and others, it becomes so very loud and nagging that it's impossible to ignore.

Now is one of the times.

I need to run for the lack of time and abundance of assignments...

Finally!

I've been meaning to update all week...yes I have!
I am writing this while half asleep!

I know I need to update about a few things so a list is in order!
I have missed you...I have missed the community that I find in blogging, the very amazing community that it is. Honest!

1. The first two weeks of my new job are an induction phase which I am going through right now and will continue until next week, I have met a few nice people- from different places and various backgrounds! I know, though, that I will be working in the investment promotion department.
2. School is a bit messy.
3. People are still kind. Very kind for that matter!
4. I need pampering....I need to get my nails done, and my hair styled...etc! My hair is so...shapeless at the moment!
5. It's the weekend!!

Do you know what that means? I get to update!! PROPERLY! I miss you.

Fill in the blanks!

Here are today's blanks to be filled in....as seen at the little things we do!

1. I am hoping my Valentine's day this year includes,warmth and smiles at my new job and 7:30 pm class...yes, I won't be doing anything.

2. My biggest guilty pleasure is   biting my cuticles  .

3. I am most proud of   my country maybe?  .

4. If I could choose one outfit to live in it would be   skirts and dresses  .

5. People are  fellow creatures :) .

6. I would rather   go out in the sun    than  stay in  .

7. I love my  home more than   anything basically  .

 

I've been meeting lots of family lately and I start a new job on Sunday and thank you for wishing me well! I love it...I was telling everyone about how lovely of a community the blogging world is...my virtual family :)

 

I will be back soon! 

Tag!

Cassie's therapy video is Erimentha's  tag

Sanchez tagged me and I tag; Missy, Nicole and Rhianne

The task: fill in 12 likes, 1 love and 8 hates like Cassie in her therapy video. Below, the bolded things are what you MUST include. Also, please link it back to Erimentha, and link it onto 3 other blogs you admire!

Here I go : 

Abracadabra, Wow! 

I like boys who have a geekiness to them girls who have nice wavy hair

I like the sun

I like  Egyptian “winters”

I like my family

I like tanned skin and bright eyes.

I like soduku 

I like books

I like acceptance

I like studying J

I like laughing out loud and meaning it.

I like serenity

I like words

I love the world.

Today I got a phone call telling me I was hired.

In some ways, I love everything. Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular, I like things that I like but I love everything. There’s more choice in like, Cos even the worst things have things you love in them. I don’t know what you mean about things I hate…

I hate feeling trapped

I hate knowing that I have a lot of growing up to do

I hate having to work to be able to live…

I hate the “grown-up” world

I hate distances.
I hate that I need to get away from here but in a way, I also sort of really really really love it .

I hate not knowing how to write a manuscript.

I hate people who don’t love enough. 

I hate this, wow...

sorry

I enjoyed doing that! I got the government job. I start on Sunday. I need to do some commenting. I have even more family coming today!

Dear You,

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You are a star. Please love, don't just live.

Love,

Sara

Lauren's fill in the blank Friday!

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1.  If I had two hours to myself today, I'd  go to the gym.

2.  If I could travel anywhere today, I would go to   Paris   .

3.      I can't pinpoint what would be      (is) my happiest memory.

4.  Sometimes you're     living       other times you're     existing .

5.  Beauty is     everywhere- you only need to have the eyes to see/find it     .

6.  I would be embarassed if anyone knew    I haven't brushed my teeth yet   .

7.  Love at first sight is    a miracle that doesn't necessarily have to happen to you   .

I think that's the cutest thing ever! I have found that through Selma! Is everyone doing the Playgirls Guide to Radical Self Love Challenge? If not, you have to!!

What I have written on the first page of my book is;

This is for me to realize the divinity that resides within me, this is for me to realize that I, myself..my self, am enough. I am more than enough. I am extraordinary. And this is proof.. 

 Do it and let me know what you write?

That Place

So my friend Nader and I went to the book fair today and ended up buying loads of...stuff including 7 vintage national geographic magazines!

We were having that talk about things that make you nostalgic for a place/someone/feeling you love but you don't know. I don't know about him, but speaking for myself;

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Certain forms of art make me yearn for that place that is only in my head...a place that I don't know...that has no form or location...it's just a place that I know is better.
A lot better for that matter.

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A place where I know I am going to be happier, my eyes would shine with life and my face just bright with positivity. But that place could be sad, too- because sadness was never a bad thing...I don't think sadness is a bad thing. Samson by Regina Spektor sends me there. It makes me want something that I have no definition for. And songs by Fairuz...the way she sounds has that aspect of utopia to it. Same goes for Kundera's words and how he uses the perfect combination of words to beautifully paint a detailed picture.

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I think it's in all forms of art that people try to communicate- or manifest- that place they dream of, or that feeling to the rest of the world. And they try to do that in a language or through a medium that the rest of the world is to understand- or at least try to.

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If only we disregard all things material and rid ourselves of the attachment to all things mundane..if only we realize the divinity within us...it wouldn't be so hard to understand then- only then.

January List

Things I have done in January 2010 that I have never done before:

1. Saw a Tanoura show.
2. Visited Nader.
3. Blood test. (for potential job)
4. Went to Mogama' el Tahrir.
5. Met a blogger friend!!! Who is an amazing friend indeed!
6. abdominal ultrasound. (that same job)
7. Went inside the great pyramid.
8. Drove to the Giza Pyramids.

So yes, I might get the/a government job! And I am happy I had done all those things during what I had thought to be a very unproductive month!! Maybe set a target of ten new things during tiny February! What the? Why is it February already?

My mum's side of family is sort of having a reunion here in Cairo during the second week of February..and my sister turns 21 on the 21 which I think is SO FREAKING COOL! haha 21 on the 21! February is such a festive month! My mum's birthday, my sister's, Menna's, and a couple of more friends' birthdays. PLUS Valentine's- does anyone else think Valentine's is overrated?

How was your January?