Friday, July 24, 2009

All My Bags Are Packed...

I'm ready to go,
I'm standing here outside your door,
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye.

I wish I had slept through it. I really wish I had. Today, they left. Three weeks of spending every minute together... and now the room smells like them.
 
Pete and my baby brother :)

And the places we've been to, they just remind me of them..remind us of them. There's just...that something that is missing. That huge little something.

I have missed this blog. But I miss them more.
I never expected to cry this much, I never expected to have this much of a heavy heart...
But then again, there are a lot of things that have happened that I would never have expected to happen, anyway!
 
my sister and Jen :)

And now I am sitting here, listening to MJ, and some Justin Nozuka, Regina Spektor and Daniel Merriweather...which I have to credit Pete for having introduced me to, really!
Having mentioned him, I really have to mention the fact that he is one of the best friends I'll ever have... and that I am grateful he's family.
 
the view from the Cairo Tower!

And Jen, Jen oh Jen...she reminds me...of so many things...so many things in one. It's weird really...I don't want to be emotional so I'll stop talking about it!

I thought I should let you know that today has been a very emotional day for me.
x

13 comments:

Anna said...

darling,
i hope you start feeling better very soon. goodbyes are so hard, i try & avoid them as much as i can...
hooray for enjoying every minute you had with them. : )

..goodbyes are necessary so you can one day say hello again... {i think i read that once.}
xo-

Shokoofeh said...

Come on darling girl, a big hug is waiting for you!

Maria-Thérèse said...

I can almost sense how nice they are from those photos :) :)
Your little brother is so adorable!

Cal said...

Here is my latest "sad song." Listen and if you love it I can send you it to you in a file so you can save it and listen to it over and over and over again...the way I do when I'm down.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shBCJ8Ir7v4

chicknamedhermia said...

Poor you! *hug* At least you got to spend so much lovely time with them tho!!!

I hope everything else is ok, and the boyfriend stuff is righting itself!

And yes, I'm very much relating to that song right now ....I feel like a complete paradoxical mess and The Boy is more patient that I deserve!

Sophia said...

your little brother is so cute!
emotional days are good sometimes. it means you enjoyed their company, and that's what really matters--that you have people you love :)

Mika said...

Hope you see them soon again girl. Mika (www.mikascrap.typepad.com)

Miss B said...

I was actually thinking about you today while I was half-asleep in the big chair in the hospital, getting my medication. Wondering how things had gone for you, in the end.

Still wondering...

Huge big open-armed embraces to you, across the miles...

Soné said...

Hope you feel better soon! Goodbyes are extremely sad and if not dealt with you bottle things up! Keep your chin up and be happy you had such a great time! :)


they look like such nice people!

alissa said...

I'm sorry! Its awesome you were able to spend so much time and round up some fabulous memories though.
For what its worth, im glad you're back :)

Mahmood said...

Hi Sara! Your blog is very nice. The images are very beautiful. God is Great. Best wishes.

http://www.thedynamicnature.com

Jefrexx said...

I LOVE YOU!
insane amounts.
you're beautiful Sara, and I miss all of our chats.
stay strong, and sane (i know it's hard in your house) but do it for me...and I'll come find you soon.

all my love :)
Jefrexx <3

Blundenpete09 said...

omg, just read this blog Sara, You have no idea how much your small comment means to me, inside, deep inside. I will hold this dear. You are an amazing family. Truly amazing.