Monday, April 12, 2010


remember my long weekend?
this is of the few photos I have of that weekend, since I was meant to entirely disconnect and, you know..

This is my cousin, Mohamed, he is more than a cousin to me, he is also my very close friend :)
I am keeping my friends close since my friends and family are all I have at the moment. I am going through a very hard time. And by hard I mean, not easy! (I am known for pointing out the obvious, mind you)

So, simply, I need all the positive thoughts and wishes you can send my way. I need to find direction, and I need to make a major, life-changing decision.

The thing is, I suck at making decisions. I hate it! Having to make a decision makes me anxious and panicky- yes, I know, I need to grow up and so on. But I just hate making decisions, am I the only one?

I am seriously considering this!


Menna Tarek said...

I see your strength very clearly and it frustrates me that you don't see it the way I do.
I know what you've been through and i can truly say "this too shall pass"
Please understand my tough love.

Caro said...

I know how you feel. This week will be one of the worst one's for me decision wise.

Gracie said...

I feel you. I don't like making decisions either, but I know we must sometimes.
Sending as many positive thoughts as I can xx

Cat* said...

Lots of positive thoughts from me to you darling!!!! Making decisions is not easy but even if the decision you will make is not "right" in the future then there will be a reason for it and it will maybe lead you to something even better! Don't stress to much about making a decision! :)

laura marie said...

sending happy thoughts! i couldn't relate more - anything that involves multiple options is always a headache for me... hang in there! :)

Nikolett said...

As cliche as it sounds ... follow your heart, I know you'll be able to make the right decision for you ... don't listen to what other people think you should do with your future, it's yours :) Definitely sending positive thoughts your way, and I hope your friends and family will too!

And ooo, that 30-day idea is really neat, I like it! Plus it gives a good reason to blog every day haha :)

Anna said...

hang in there ladybug!! happy thoughts your way!

Jodes said...

growing up is the scariest thing and don't let anyone convince you otherwise. don't make any decisions until you're ready to and until you believe in them with most of your heart. we are still so young and have so much time to live. that being said, wasting any of it doing something you don't love will break your heart faster than an elephan breaks an eggshell.

Love&Light (And Strength&Insight in this case, too)!

Erimentha said...

aww darling, growing up can be so scary sometimes. but don't worry, you can always be a kid at heart and i hope that whatever you are going through is going to be ok...i'll be thinking of you!!!!

i think you should definately do the 30day challenge! abby (do you know her blog?) does it and she is really good :)

much love

Athena. said...

i hope you find answers/the right decision, beautiful!
i'll be thinking of you :)

OneCraftyFox said...

I hope your decision takes you in the direction that you want to go...


Thanks so much for dropping by my blog and leaving a nicey. Have a fabulous day!

ali said...

Sending positive and happy thoughts your way. I know you will make the right decision!

cinta / sepi / sayu said...

thank you dearest. of course you're not the one, it frightens me so to make decisions. Xx

Americanising Desi said...

i think we can do it together :D the 30 day thing :D that way we can't cheat or take a break from the plan ;)

Farah said...

Oh no! I hope things are going well for you my dear! Whatever it is, believe that it'll work out and it will! I promise you that! stay strong sis! xoxo

Anonymous said...

Hope things get better.
Keep me updated! :)

The Childlike empress said...

oh dear....making big decisions is never fact making small decision isnt fun either!

i think its always important to listen to your gut instinct...there's is a reason for it being your gut instinct!!

defining amy said...

whatever decision you make will be the right one because you will make it be the right one. the best part about life is that we can make the whole experience our own. i'm excited for the big changes in your life. i know they will be wonderful and they will continue to shape you into the person you are. plus, you can always alter your course later down the path, as you gain more experience. good luck!! i know you'll make the best decision for you. sending lots of positive vibes your way!!