I know this is a depressing thought, but can this be true?
Also, my nose piercing has a darker circle around it...is it the ring? I don't know but it still hurts a bit- it's been a week.
I enjoyed my break.. I really did. I went with my family to Alexandria and the North Coast. BEAUTIFUL weather! Alexandria is, unlike Cairo, susceptible to autumn and weather change, it rained there yesterday morning and I was more than happy to witness the first rain of the season! I walked in the rain :)
I am at a crossroads right now, and I am scared. I am more scared than I have ever been in my life. Because it's sort of a no-going-back decision that I need to make and it is definitely a life changing one. It could make me forever happy or leave me forever in regret.
There are a million things on my mind and I am trying to enjoy it. I sip my coffee and enjoy it. I write in my Moleskine to not forget- regardless of how much I want this phase to end, I would still want to remember what I have gone through... Years from now, I would want to remember what got me there.
Having mentioned my Moleskine, I can't wait for the new year! Which reminds me I need to start losing weight...gah! Frustration!
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You do NOT need to lose weight! Come on! Unless you want to be a starving looking model but I think there's too much life in your eyes.
Do you clean the piercing properly with a desinfectant? Does it hurt, is it warm or just dark? (Isn't your dad a doctor? ;D )
I'm at a biiig crossroads too, in a way. Hm. If you send me a bit of your Egyptian magic I'll send you some magic snow. Not saying there's snow yet but I'm talking about MA-GIC now. I think I should stop babbling and go bind a book.
I do hope the changes make you happy.
It's better to regret something you HAVE done.
Positive thinking from me :)
I think jade's a nice color too :D
oh i love jade!!
i hope you start to feel better darling. listen to your heart, sometimes it is very quiet!!
have a lovely day & sending warm wishes your way!!
xo-
Lovely green collages! I'm so glad you had a great time up north.
I hope you manage to decide what you will do... Like Ju above says, it's better to regret something you've done than to think 'what if?'
Saskia x
That's a good color to be obsessed with. ;)
the pictures are beautiful!
whatever decisions you have to make, remember, it's more about the journey than the destination...enjoy the trip!
happy thursday :)
welcome back :) im glad you had a fun little vacation! i love all these pictures especially the minty colored ones :) the i wrote this for you blog always boggles my mind. have a wonderufl thursday my dear
I write in my moleskine for the same reason.
& I really want to travel through Egypt one day.
You are skinny lady! What weight will you lose?! You'll be bones! Anyway.. can't wait to hear about these life changing events - if you choose to share them of course - just remember no matter what happens, you're where you're at for a reason. :] Good job on keeping a journal of how you're feeling. I did that for when me and my ex broke up. It has kept me strong in why we ended even when I missed him so.
I'm sure you will make the right decision in the end. Just remember that change is always always difficult, but it does allows you to grow as a person, and life would be pretty dull if it always stayed the same! xx
No way you look fine I'm sure!! No need to lose weight!
And these pictures are so lovely.
And good luck with your decision, I hope it's something that will make you happy!
Those collages make me really happy. The colour is so summery and pretty. I hope the changes work out for you and you are able to make the decision x
The thing about the scratches -- you know, we live in a society, in a period, right now where everything is impersonal and shiny and just...Other. And we have to buy things that are shiny and unblemished and then buy special cases for them so that they remain shiny and unblemished and all of this is making us so disconnected from Things in general that it is no wonder we're all out of our minds confused.
You don't _need_ to lose weight. You don't _need_ to do anything. If you want to change how you eat or how active you are, that's a different matter entirely. But if you're focused on losing weight (and, judging from photos, you have a beautiful body, by the way) then it will only be an unpleasant thing for you.
You think I'm happy, and that makes me laugh. I'm not, really -- but there are moments, of course, when things can light up and, if there is not peace, exactly, there are at least small islands of internal stillness.
Close your eyes and make a wish...
Jade colour is so beautiful, I love the pretty collages you put up here! I need to keep a lookout for more jade-coloured stuff:)
Being at the crossroads is scary, I hope you make the right decision and find happiness in whichever path you chose, good luck!
YAYAYAY you're BACK! I missed you! Srsly! I love that color, I'm looking for a nail polish like that!
And do not loose any weight love! You are amazing!!
sarahhhh :) i have a question for you! but i cant find your email... im not on my phone which i think is where it's stored. will you email me so i can ask ya?! you're the best :)
nice write and pic off course :)
I like the way you enjoy your life and on the other hand u dont stop thinking and planning :)
I love the color jade! Those are all wonderful collages. Very cool. :)
I was just debating about getting the Chanel Jade polish tonight. Have you tried it?
I just made a life changing decision 2 days back, i was sooo worried and unsure but now i'm so glad i made it!! there's still a shadow of doubt if life was more uncomplicated before it but it seems awwrite... hope u find ur answers too soon.
and yeah i'm also totally trippin on mint.. its supposed to be the 'eco-trend' thats catching on. even though my nails keep finding their way back to red, i think green deserves more shelf space now!..
yes clarity :)
hope you get yours.
love.
The red circle isn't too much to worry about - it may always be a bit darker than the other skin. Once it heals completely you'll want to (very gently) exfoliate and moisturize it. If it's hurting, pouring warm water with dissolved salt over it helps clean it. Apparently tea tree oil is good for it too, especially if you get a bump next to it. It might feel fragile for a few months even, that's normal!
That color really is beautiful. It's like spring and winter rolled into one.
Jade green is such a gorgeous colour. Soothing!
I do hope you feel better soon!
Dear Sara,
I hope the decision will make you happy. :-*
And pls, you are SO fine now! Lose weight, why?? Don't think so, really:)
I'm glad you had a great time:)
xx from Madrid
Fabulous jade post and I hope you find just what you searching for around the corner! So glad I found your lovely blog! Sharon xx
yay welcome back!! Jade is such a fabulous color!! Have a great weekend!
I'm sure, regardless of what you do, you will ulitmentely choose the right thing.
I've been thinking about gettting a small stud in my nose lately.
I have a moleskin too, but I have several and I never seem to write in them I get distracted to easily.
I'm lately into marine blue! Love it so much I colored my nails with this superb color.
About the piercing, it's normal that way. But if it's getting worse, I think you should see a doctor.
As for the crossroad, take your time, darling. Think about it thoroughly and make the decision. I don't know, but I've always believed that my life is in God's hands. If I've done good with good intention, it will all be amazing! Oh yes, you might experience hurdles and shit along the road, but you're heading towards a magnificent place! Good luck, sweetheart...
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