Just in case anything happens

Note: I am posting this on behalf of Sara. They (Egypt) is on complete communication lock-down at the moment and blocked off from the rest of the world. I was supposed to post this at 10Am Egypt time, but since my connection is under attack, I thought it would be better to get this out asap. Pray for them. Pray for all of Us. If i find out anything and need to post it, with her blessing i will, provided my connection holds up.
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I am beginning to freak out. I am going to do this. I am going to do this. I am going to do this.

I am.

For the future me to not hate me…For my country..For my brother and for my family… For everyone. I am only one among thousands, in hopes of reaching a million Egyptians.

Everyone is advising me against it. But I want to do it. I can hear the sirens outside, and my brother is randomly hugging me, telling me he's worried and concerned. My grandmother is acting all weird. My mother went to bed, and my dad is being sarcastic. I went to the supermarket for "supplies". I will be fine, right?

My fingertips are cold. People keep saying that the CS will have no mercy as ordered by the Ministry of Interior; they have started blocking websites already. And internet and cell phone providers are giving up on the Egyptians. 

I know this all sounds exaggerated but...I am scared. And I feel like it's my duty to go to the protest tomorrow. I got a very touching email today from a friend and a sister from another country, and I know she might not want me to name her, but you know who you are. I cried. I love you, too.

I love everyone on here how has touched me. Everyone has in so many ways. I love you Liz, and Shokoofeh, and Taylor and Maria-Thérèse... and everyone really.

And, Dr. Abdel Aziz Ezz El Arab, thank you for making me believe that anything is possible, that everything is possible. Thank you for making me believe in myself (Again, and again, and again)

I also cannot begin to explain the amount of love I have for my family BOTH my sisters, yes, I love you, too Sondos. And Salma, for we have been through everything together throughout our lives. Everything…And my brother, I do everything for my brother; I love him beyond words, beyond everything imaginable. He is my little baby, I have raised him and I am so proud to be this little brat's eldest sister. I love you Saeed.

And my parents, I love both my parents even though my mum might think otherwise. I owe everything I am to my parents and Said (my late grandfather) and Nana my grandmother. Pappy, I am thankful for everything you are and everything you have done for me and you too, Mummy. I am just scared they would take me and keep me for a bit, that's all. I am not going to die or anything. They're not going to shoot at us, right?

I love you, too countless cousins, all of you, really. And Menna, it’s safe to say you are the best friend I have ever had. And everyone I called my best friend along the years. (Yes, Sondos F, you too.) And Sara Abdel Azim, and Yasmine Khalil, and Sherine Mohammed) Amr Galal and Hayek, I don't think I need words, for you know how much you mean to me. I am not dying or anything, that's only in case they take me.

Azul, I miss you and I love you.

Ahmed. Well, you'll be with me tomorrow, right? Thank you for finding me. Twitter is helping with the protests and it was the reason for our existence.

I am doing this for my country, my own world. My own country, my Nile and my Red Sea, my Alexandria, too. This is for everyone who lost their lives on the bad roads, and due to depression, for everyone who lost their lives as a result of police brutality. My you all rest in peace.

This is for the hope for change.

This is for Iran. Maybe, this time we'll make it work.

Yes, this maybe a bit too exaggerated, but I feel better now that I have written it. At least, now, just in case anything happens, and they take me, you will know. Everyone will know. I will give my password to a friend, to let you know if they take me. If they take me, or anyone I know, please contact them.