Monday, August 23, 2010

Very Long Post(Monday 23rd)

Nicole posted this and Elizabeth Gilbert's quote just left me speechless...

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..." 
"Break your heart so new light can get in" scratch your little cut so it hurts this tiny bit, yes, I know how that feels...I know how it feels. A soul mate intimidates you at times when you are feeling this little bit too comfortable in a place you have reached and loved, it's not that you need to be constantly on the move, you just need the challenge every now and then. I guess.

My cousin, whose husband passed away a little over a month ago, was here to have iftar with us. She cooked her husband's favorite food so that his favorite people would eat it. I think this is the sweetest thing ever. I know this is Day 21's extraordinary thing.

Day 20 was a night on my best friend's roof, lots of people and side conversations and playing twister and I always love nights like these...oh, and I've learnt of something that I didn't really like, or never quite expected rather- but it's okay. My sister came back yesterday and got my first birthday gift; a Michael Kors handbag which I find BEAUTIFUL! My little sister got me my first birthday gift!

Days 18 and 19 were exceptional if I may say. But apart from that, the 18th was supposed to be mine and my ex's 3rd anniversary, and it felt a bit odd that it's just another day this year. But that was during the day, I don't think I gave it much thought after iftar..Oh and I saw Hannah!! And I met this friend of mine, who just gave me this energy to realize things. (How come your link seems to be broken?)

Yesterday was a rather weird day, because I ended up in my car with around a dozen guys outside...well, this is not something I would usually do, and hadn't there been someone I am comfortable around, I would have definitely left... but I enjoyed the liberty of not having someone to tell me not to. Of asking me to go home. Of asking me to not be around all those guys.

Today I am going to have iftar with my friends from work and I am looking forward to it, even though I have a productivity of zero due to lack of sleep... I am looking foward to that. I had a great morning. I had a great morning and a talk that was rather intimidating- but intimidating is good. Always, always good.


Ratz said...

You are getting there girl.... 3 more days to go... hurray... all the best... and guess what this sunday i visited the place i have written so much about... it was simple great :-D

Menna Tarek said...

We need to talk

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you are doing well.
Enjoy iftar with your friends.
All my love.


Shokoofeh said...

I love you, girl!

defining amy said...

i totally know what you mean by intimidating talks... and how sometimes they are exactly what i need. i love reading your writing.

Dapoppins said...

I think I need to go google iftar right now