You should be here.
Right there, next to me.
Sometimes I am lonely.
Other times I am just fine.
Right now I am fine.
Sometimes I feel like I need someone to unconditionally listen to me. Unconditionally. Someone who wouldn't mind being on the phone with me while I say nothing. Nothing at all. Someone who would have coffee with me- any time of day.
I once was told that I live on a cloud, and that I need to be more in touch with my reality, but I exist in an entirely different world. I mean, I am at the office right now, but in my head, I am at the beach- and there is no oil and no oil spill- and the sun is shining and the waves are singing to me. I have a book in my hands and it is keeping me company. I can feel the tanlines forming.
“I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face, they don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.” — Waitress (here)
And a little love could help. Actually, we all deserve a lot of love, and I won't accept anything but! I do have a lot of love around me- love from myself, love from my family and love from my friends. I also choose to believe the universe loves me.
My cousin's wedding went great, but I don't have photos yet. My other cousin's wedding is on the 15th of July- my brother turns 9 on that very same day. Remember my February women post? I will have one up for my July men. My late grandfather, my brother, my second cousin, my good friend and (my ex)
I need a muse.
In case anyone missed this, here's a link.