And I have missed this place.
My semester has started and I had registered (before the entire revolution/uprising) for a soc "Modern Social Movements" class and econ "Project Evaluation" and then it all happened...
And I think my sociology class could never have been more interesting.
No, I won't write about the uprising again, or maybe not this time...
Because I need some "me" time. I don't think I have had time for myself in the past year, and it has affected me in so many ways...it has affected how I see myself and my relevance within my circle, my world...
Because people evolve, yet some people will never change, and they will have the same binding thoughts and worries and they will never grow, why? because they don't know who they are and where they belong and why they are here. And the fact that they are here is in itself a good enough reason...a good enough answer to the eternal question of "why am I here?"
I refuse to be one of those people.
I have let myself slip, I let go, somehow and suddenly, I realise it, or not...suddenly, it was pointed out to me and it was such a shock.. It was a shock to me that who I thought I was/am and who people think I am are two different people, my self awareness was just no longer there..
I matter. I matter because I exist and I have a voice, and I have a mind that thinks brilliantly, and so does everyone else. That, I should never forget. Everyone has a voice, and opinion and a thought and everyone deserves to be heard and listened to.
It is exhausting as I write this, and I don't feel like proof reading... I hope I am not spreading negative energy through this post, but I felt I needed the reminder.
My semester has started and I had registered (before the entire revolution/uprising) for a soc "Modern Social Movements" class and econ "Project Evaluation" and then it all happened...
And I think my sociology class could never have been more interesting.
No, I won't write about the uprising again, or maybe not this time...
Because I need some "me" time. I don't think I have had time for myself in the past year, and it has affected me in so many ways...it has affected how I see myself and my relevance within my circle, my world...
Because people evolve, yet some people will never change, and they will have the same binding thoughts and worries and they will never grow, why? because they don't know who they are and where they belong and why they are here. And the fact that they are here is in itself a good enough reason...a good enough answer to the eternal question of "why am I here?"
I refuse to be one of those people.
I have let myself slip, I let go, somehow and suddenly, I realise it, or not...suddenly, it was pointed out to me and it was such a shock.. It was a shock to me that who I thought I was/am and who people think I am are two different people, my self awareness was just no longer there..
I matter. I matter because I exist and I have a voice, and I have a mind that thinks brilliantly, and so does everyone else. That, I should never forget. Everyone has a voice, and opinion and a thought and everyone deserves to be heard and listened to.
It is exhausting as I write this, and I don't feel like proof reading... I hope I am not spreading negative energy through this post, but I felt I needed the reminder.
8 comments:
You couldn't have been more right Sara. WE have a voice. We exist.
I can only imagine how everything must have impacted you this year and you must tired and in need some well deserved rest and a bit of time to just do some fun things, remember to be kind to yourself :)
Oh Sara, I love you. I hope your days are better. I'm so glad to be reading your blog again. This post actually inspires me to find myself and live for myself while loving others. In this past year, I lost myself. Now, it's hurting. But don't worry, we'll rise, and live in happiness.
LOVE!
Hi Sara:
This was a great posting-I have been feeling the same way lately. We are strong, and we will be heard! Don't let yourself slip my dear, hang on tight!
Sara - I'm glad you're taking time for YOU. I love 'hearing' your voice...as I am sure do a lot of your readers - old and new. However, I do appreciate that it's important to take a break now and then and recall who we are.
Warm hugs....
Wow yeah, I'd say it'd be an amazing time to be taking a sociology module...if anything, it will help you sort your own ideas and feeling out!
You're brilliant. Where are you? It's been a while since your last post. Everything ok?
Love you!
I think that blogging becomes stressful or just not as much fun, take a break. A lot has happened to you recently....
I hope you enjoy the classes. I was taking a class on slavery when Barack Obama was elected - it was the most amazing time to have been enrolled in that class, to see the progress in the U.S. (by no means complete though)...
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