Stuck at the Office

When I took that long weekend off from work, I would go to bed very late. My cousin and sister and I would stay in bed giggling like 12 year olds in a slumber party and it was so much fun. I feel so much younger lately and I don't know if that's a good thing.

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During that long weekend I;

• Went home at 6 am on one "night"
• Tanned.
• Spent time with family
• Drove a total of 1000 km (how many miles is that?)
• Felt tiny
• Laughed out loud
• Sincerely smiled
• Found a generous bonus in my account!

And now I am at the office- proud of my tan line, my hair a shade lighter and I am missing my friends. My best friend left to this place yesterday, and the day before my(and my best friend's) ex from around 4 years ago left to Spain, I had been spending a lot of time with him so I am missing them both this weekend.
Yes, my best friend and I dated the same person; they got together less than a month after said ex and I broke up. It's a long, long story but I love them both to bits.
I can tell you about that some other time if you'd like to know.

It's the last day of the work week and I find myself wanting to go home and read. But that's only the realistic solution.

Ultimately(and far from realistically) I want to;

• Be in Paris.
• Go on a felouka ride along the Nile
• Buy a whole new wardrobe
• Lose 5 kilos
• Get a great big hug
• Be in Basata with my friends
• Get extensions since I have no idea how I would look like with long hair
• Bake cupcakes
• Have weekend pancakes tomorrow with tons of maple syrup

How is everyone doing?

This might be a pointless post, but...

I lost a follower today, and I don't know if it's because I am overly optimistic, or if this place is more of a lala land sort of place..

That's what my friends say- and I don't mind.

You see, I think holding grudges and being depressed and so on is just a waste of life. Life is too precious to waste on such things. People get those moments, and it's not that I am always happy, I am not. I get very bad moods and can lose my temper at times. I don't have the best relationship with my mother. I don't always meet my dad's expectations.

But I am happy. I am content. I have the best family (by family I mean parents, brother, sister, aunts, uncles, grandmother and cousins) that I could ask for. I have the best friends I could ever ask for. I have this blog. I like my job. People actually read my blog.

There's a long list of things I am thankful for. So I don't really live on my own cloud. It's all good.

I spent the weekend at the beach, with my family basically, and I am tanned as I could get (that's an exaggeration but I am really tanned) I took three out of the five working days off and I am going back to work on Wednesday. I think everyone should do that! It's so refreshing and liberating in a way...

So yeah, today marks the countdown to my birthday (exactly a month away) and I try to make that one last month special- suggestions?

What I know (so far)

I love it when someone puts things perfectly, just right, with the perfect words and full stops and commas. I just love it. This little blog post of inspiration just made me feel like I want to rise up and never be the same again. I want to live my life to the fullest. (Miss Walrus is a real life friend and yes, I am bragging!)

In fact, as I was driving back from work today, all I could feel was sympathy towards the workaholics...proving yourself at the workplace is good, but obsessing about your job and career and such is just...too much. Being established and such could wait, your youth would not. Your life won't wait for you, you have to enjoy it as it comes. Make the best of what you have. Take that long weekend, leave right when your workday ends. You could always finish the task tomorrow.

Also, check this video out.

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I never thought I would grow up. Let alone growing up to be the person I am today. It's not that I had any expectations - or plans- I just never thought I would be the me that I am as I write this. My love for writing was exposed to me when I was, I think eleven or twelve, I wrote a composition piece about the life of a coca cola bottle, and everyone loved it. And that's still part of me. My love for reading started with Anne of Green Gables. For children when my 13 year old sister was born. My love for coffee started very early - as a child, my grandfather would take me and my other sister (who is only 18 months younger) to a coffee shop and I would order a cappuccino and her an espresso (it's still the same today). I have always been a good student, and my parents expected much from me when it came to grades, and at certain points in my life, I would not study or do my best on purpose so I would rebel against my parents (and I regret it). However, the unexpected part is that I wanted to be a genetic engineer, and I am currently studying to be a development economist, with an interest in socioeconomic history (I have a BSc in Economics). When I was younger, I wanted to get married by the time I am 20, just like my mum, I am twenty-two, and am single for the first time in so long! I am taking the time and chance to get to know myself, and you are welcome to join me. And hence, my writing this now...

I don't know who I am going to be next year, or the one after, I have no plan. I know, though, that I have so much passion and that I need to share it with the world. I know I love Egypt and that I need to do something for her, something that would make a difference. I know that I love human beings, and I would also like to do something that would matter for them, the whole race, the whole generation. We are such a blessed generation, I hope everyone realizes that.

Sharing your thoughts on who you are, who you thought you would be, and how similar/different both are - or just thoughts in general is encouraged! :P

Shine on, it's Friday

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Since it's Friday and I haven't done this in a while I thought it's about time that I do, right?

1. A very nostalgic place that reminds me of being a kid is Le Chantilly, the Swiss restaurant in Korba (my favorite place in Heliopolis) or the Movenpick near the airport.

2. If someone really wants to show me how much they love me tell me. Hug me Spend time with me. Smile and actually care; that’s how I know.

3. Lately I've been wondering a lot about how this life works out, it’s been one weird summer so far.

4. When it comes to saving money I am one of those people who’d spend until there’s no more left .

5. I'd prefer being at the beach over being at work, duh! any day!

6. I wish I knew how to make changes in how things work where I work. I wish I could draw and sing. I wish I could make everyone the optimist I am.

7. I'm just waiting for things to be clear, and getting the bonus from work, I am waiting for the Fall semester to begin because I miss studying .

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I want to write and have the world read what I have to say. I want to teach someone something. At least one thing. I want to touch as many lives as I can, and one day, when I am no longer there, have someone say that I have changed their lives, even if in the tiniest ways...
But that's what I want with all my heart. That's what I pray for.

I have a mentor, who I really miss, a person who believes in me when they don't really need to. They show that they believe in me when they don't really need to. And they tell me things, just for the sake of it. And it makes me want to go on. It generates this huge amount of energy within me, that makes me never want to stop. They shine, and I, in turn, shine, too!

Little Brother

Thank you for the condolences everyone :)
You really did make me feel better.

On a much, much, much brighter note, it's my little brother's birthday today!! And if you know me, you probably know how much I love that little boy (who is no longer "little"- almost as tall as I am...but then again I am short!)

He turned nine today!!!!
I feel old? No, I feel amazing, I have watched this little monkey grow! And he's just amazing. And he looks just like me! We're best friends :)

Happy birthday, Saeed! I LOVE YOU!!

A letter to the Sea

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I have resplendent flecks, everywhere, in my sky on a dark night. The dark night that could be one's life, sometimes, for life works in cycles, day and night. Now is a night. They are like millions of stars in the desert as you sit and listen to the Red Sea. They guide you. They give you hope.
I know that not everyone knows how that feels, or looks like...but I am sure those of you who do, know exactly what I am talking about...

Patches of brightness on a stretch of dark, dark sky- reflected on a sea that sings such a serene song. The Red Sea could be one of my favorite water bodies in the world. I think it actually is- but so is the Nile. The Mediterranean is just too angry, it's impulsive and violent...and I love how the Red Sea caresses you with such tenderness and care. It loves you, it takes you in its arms and holds you as the sun does her job during the day, and at night, it listens. It listens to the very same silence you are listening to, but I am not sure if we speak the same language...which is never a bad thing.

Dear Red Sea,

I need to tell you something, remember my cousin's husband? He passed away on Friday, he was like an older brother to me and I want to make sure he's watching over his 6 and 2 year olds, I want him to know that we are there for them and that we are there for my cousin. Because, that would give him peace; knowing that they would never need to need anything. I want him to know that he will be (and he is already) missed. And that we love him. He is in a better place, sea, I know that...a place where he can no longer feel any pain. But losing him is painful.

Love,

me

But then, it's all good, I choose to deal with things as such in a way that doesn't leave me or those around me in despair, because I know that whenever you lose someone, they would never want to see you sad.

Last Weekend

Gala Darling's Curious Tuesday this week = amazing!

1. What was your first kiss experience?
It was on the street, on one random night...I was 19!

2. If you could work for — & learn from — anyone, who would it be & why?
My Dr. Abdel Aziz Ezz El Arab. Because he is such an inspiring person. And has an amazing amount of self awareness and insight.

3. Have you ever taken a Myers-Briggs test? (If not, do it here, it’s quick & easy!) What was your result? Do you think it was accurate? (Also, TypeLogic is a great resource for finding out more information about your type.)
I took it today! And my God, is it accurate :) My result: ENFJ

4. What is your favourite thing about your best friend?
That she's my best friend? I just love her- you'll have to meet her to know why.

5. What makes you happiest?
Knowing that I have done a good job at anything!

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Over the weekend, I went to the North Coast with my friends, and family were twenty minutes away... All I could say is that I am still living off the energy that weekend gave me even now that the week is almost over. I didn't take my laptop with me and I was totally disconnected. I had fun - so much fun!

I think I was seeing in Sepia...I still am. And the sea was as if keeping a secret. One that it was too scared would escape it, washing the shore away with big, big waves.. And the sun was just too bright, in that muted way, it didn't hurt to look at it, but it had that faded out effect - I don't know if I am making sense, but the image of that is so clear in my head, I can't get over it.

It was a weekend of old friends, and laughs and waves and feeling young again! I was taken four years back and it feels good. I feel young again.