Friday, January 8, 2010

Untitled.

My grandmother sometimes confuses things. She forgets.
She tells stories over and over without realizing it. And she can call the same person twice if not more, for the same purpose. And it makes me sad. Just a little. Because my grandmother was so in control of her life. It's scary.

We're going to Sokhna today, by the Red Sea... maybe I'll find my clarity. I have been praying for clarity. Constantly.





I've been pleading for clarity. Maybe it's true that when you want something so bad you never get it? Or...does the concept of a watched pot never boils apply here? It reminds me of having to wait for someone to be there for me when I hit that man on his scooter.

I.want.clarity.
Please find me?

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29 comments:

AudreyAllure said...

that looks like such a beautiful place. i hope you do find your clarity!

love your blog! :)
- Audrey Allure
http://audreyallure.blogspot.com

boots said...

wow thatlooks like the perfect place to relax , <3 chin up , xoxo,
katie

Rhianne said...

Wow, that looks amazing, I hope you have a good time, hugs x

Randi Lee said...

That is beautiful! The ocean has a way of bringing peace... even if it's only for a moment.

The chaos will calm... it won't be here forever, promise! It just might take some time to wade through it all...

Jess said...

YOU are going to find clarity
I know it.

Anna said...

love & clarity to you this weekend, sweet lady!
xo-

Vivi said...

I'm praying for your clarity to come as soon as possible.
Sorry for your grandma

Love x

Betty said...

Oh, the Red Sea, you lucky lucky girl, can I come too please ? :) Have a brilliant time and enjoy yourself, clarity will come along all by itself, you'll see.

Selma said...

Hope you find your clarity soon girl. But don't forget that when you stubbornly look for something it might never come your way. Happy weekend lady! :D

Jennifer Fabulous said...

Gorgeous photos. :)
I agree with Selma. Don't stress yourself out too much! Clarity finds us when we least expect it. It takes one small moment for us to realize what we want to know. Good luck on your quest!

Barry said...

Sara, let your life unfold naturally. Learn from the lessons but don't be too eager for the answers. If you live your life as you should, in time you'll find the clarity you seek. I know it.

Iva said...

both images are so beautiful! I especially love the first one Sara!!

thank you so much for your happy birthday wishes to me yesterday!!! I really appreciate it!! have a great weekend!

Mormon Bachelor Pad said...

I think clarity is something that has to be learned, not found.

I expect you will have it sooner than you think.

-j

Sandy said...

Sorry to hear about your grandmother. My mom had dimentia the last 4 years of her life. It can be really tough ... I trust you'll get some clarity. I hope you continue to have lots of good times with her.

S.Elisabeth said...

I know what you mean. I wish I knew what was in store for me the next four years and even the rest of this year. I wish I could think clearly through all the problems life brings. I hope you at least get a little clarity after your visit.
And I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother =(!

alissa said...

dont want clarity - just have it. know that its in you, its there.

sarah said...

i remember when my gramps had alzheimers. its one of the hardest things, watching someone you love so much lose control of their mind and memory

just hang in there, sara

xx

Nitin said...

it just reminded me of my dad's friends dad. he had terrible memory loss problems. i think memory makes life worth living. short term , long term ,all of it. connecting the dots become soo difficult without them. i think you are in soul searching mode again. i have been doing a lot of thinking too.. today especially. but what im thinking about is nothing like what you are probably thinking about. the red sea is a beautiful place.. i have never been to it. but i guess i would make my trip to one of it's shores some day. maybe it would help clear up a few things for me too .

Inside the Cabinet of Wonder said...

sorry about your grandma, its odd to see people you love like that. I know how you feel.
xx

beautifulnemo said...

hi Sara...
I think I've never talked about it here before but my grandma has alzheimer... she's been ill for more than 10 years already.
We just give her all our love...

That place looks beautiful, hope you can rest and find part of your clarity there.

:***

Gracie said...

I hope you find your clarity. It can be so hard to find it. I hope this place inspires you and helps you. xx

Belle said...

Hope you have found some clarity this weekend darling!!

Old age is so sad isn't it? At least she has you to keep her young!!

Ahhh yes! I am so excited for my birthday! It will be my first one back in a few years! can't wait!
have a good day doll xxx

Sophia said...

I too hope you found some clarity.

My grandma is 86 years old, and she's still so young at heart because we keep her so active. She lives with us, and we play board games with her, do chores with her, have her tell lots of stories...an active mind is the key to youth. :)

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in company with sparkles said...

Christ is what gives my life clarity - and who gives me hope when I think of the fact that Alzheimer's runs in the family and I could one day lose my memory. I would still praise him!

with love,
Cait

Vivi said...

Hi Kiki! How was your weekend in that glorious beach-place? I hope you are feeling better.

Thanks a lot for reading me... it makes me feel really good... I was starting to think I have no readers at all and feeling a bit down.

I'd love to go to Egypt, but as I don't have that much money for the tickets and things, I'm looking for a place to go on a week-end break. But, the moment I decide to go to Egypt... Oh! I'll let you know because I'll have to plan my trip don't I?

I hope you have a nice week, and why don't you read through all the comments your readers have left you for the past months... you'll find that there is a lot of people who like you and who care about you, maybe you'll feel a bit better.

Miss your emails :) i liked having a penfriend.

Love, xxx

Nahl said...

The answers are usually inside of you.
Good luck.

Manju said...

it's all part of growing old i guess honey, you cant do anything except be there for her :)

in company with sparkles said...

Oh, and though it's not exactly like a 'fat-ha' that's a good analogy! Some people do 'betrothalship' which is a season before marriage that cannot be broken off, but for us courtship is still a time of getting to know one another on another level and seeking God's will (though we want to get married). It's much more serious and intentional than 'dating,' and has the approval and guidance of my father, like you said, so it is kept pure and an example.

love,
cait