This One is for You

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There will come a time when most songs will bring you to tears, and there will be times when you find yourself crying whenever you are alone (it is also the time when you try to keep yourself busy, so you wouldn't have to be alone)

In running away from yourself, you are at your loneliest.

There will come a time when you open your journal and pick up your pen, but there will be no words to write. And times when you pick up your phone to call your best friend but there just aren't any words to say.

All you need is a hug, but life is in your way.

When that time is now, please know that I am here. And that I am willing to hug you, that I would hug you. That I really want to talk to you but I just don't know what to say.

I miss the time when you called me in the middle of the night, crying, because this is when I felt closest to you. And now all I feel is a distance.

I try to be understanding, but I don't really get it, you see? 

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Yeah, I think that's all I have to say today. It will be okay, that I know.

A Bit of Everything

“The hardest period in life is one’s 20s. It’s a shame because you’re your most gorgeous and you’re physically in peak condition. But it’s actually when you’re most insecure and full of self-doubt. When you don’t know what’s going to happen, it’s frightening.”-Helen Mirren via Little Reminders of Love

It is frightening, so very frightening, especially at 24, especially when I am almost done with my degree and I don't know what is going to happen next. I am the kind of person who has to have something to do, always.

But when I am done, I will have time to send all the letters I have written and had not the time to send, I will pay more attention to this space here.. I will have time to do so many things! I hope. So that is something to look forward to.

I will read again and hopefully write again and my life will be a lot better.

Taylor posted this and I couldn't wait to try it. And here are the results:

Pray for Egypt. Elections are eight days away and protesters are still being shot at and hurt. And I don't really know what to do about it. As much as I want to be protesting right now, there is also a lot of campaigning that should be done. And awareness about the elections and who to vote for (not namely, just you know, the qualities of a person who deserves your vote)

The upcoming elections are the first "true" elections in the lifetimes of many. And my friend, Mahmoud Salem is running!!

On a totally different note, I am going to try to give my blog a makeover. 

Eleven

What did everyone do for 11.11.11?

I did nothing, at 11 pm I read about the numerology of 11.11.11 and it said something about the conscious being connected to the subconscious.

I wished for forever at 11:11 on 11.11.11. I know it might sound pathetic for some, or hopeless even, but, I just did.

Oh I love you. Every single one out there. I do.

Birthdays and Graduations

My boyfriend/fiancé/ boyancé (teehee) turned 25 on Friday, and I haven't figured out what to get him for his birthday yet.

It's the hardest thing I ever had to decide, even harder than deciding what to eat (Something I am completely incapable of doing, read this if you have the same problem) I think that's what you get when you start dating someone less than a week after you first meet them, and that's what you get for being with someone you barely have anything in common with.

He is into everything geeky and I am....a nerd - more or less. I don't like video games and I don't read comics, I don't watch movies all that much nor do I watch TV shows. And this list right there pretty much sums up my boyancé's life.

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I came across this on Pinterest, and well, I think dealing with the fact that no one is perfect would make life easier for everyone. I mean, we all need the reminder every now and then, thinking that people should exactly know what you want, how you feel and what you need is just totally and completely wrong - I need the reminder (constantly) myself. I need to remind myself not to expect, especially from those I love so much.

(I also sometimes need to remind myself that my life shouldn't revolve around anyone but shhh)

There was more to this post, but I kind of forgot what I was about to write, and if I save it as a draft I will never get to post it...so I might as well.

PS I am graduating this semester, but guess who beat me to it? Farah! And I am so very, very happy for her!

An Introduction to SaraLand

There is something wrong with me, definitely. I don't really know what is. But I check my reader and I read the posts and I mark them unread so I comment over the weekend, and come the weekend, I am bombarded with studying I have procrastinated about all week.

And, that, ladies (and gentlemen) sums up my life at the moment.

In other news:

• My eyesight is getting worse, I am now -1 and -0.75 (yes, that's getting worse) and I need to wear my glasses all the time now. I am taking the chance to buy new glasses. I want them framed, and possibly tortoise and wayfarer/squared/rectangular. Suggestions?
• My car has been giving me a hard time; a flat tire on the highway and stuff, but it's all good.
• The best friend wrote this beautiful post, which made me sad in a way, and thankful in another way...but mostly sad. 

I need my life back. I need to see my friends, I need to write again, I need to read again. But then again, I am scared at the thought that I might have free time. Free time kills me, I get bored really easily and usually end up depressed.

I guess, then I will have more time to blog, and maybe my blog would be what it used to be. But things change, and not always to the better. But that's failure, right?

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The other day, boyfriend and I were talking and I was explaining to him how things are different in my world; SaraLand. In SaraLand, I said, we express love and affection through pinching and biting - randomly (and not in a sexual way, it's totally casual) and we usually freak out when things are going fine. We tend to cocoon when life becomes too much to take.

We always, always procrastinate. And so on. Our national emblem is a proud white unicorn, its horn sparkling and colorful, and it stands with pride at the center of our flag - behind it is a lightening bolt. Because things aren't always bright and cheery in SaraLand.