"I Wrote This For You"

This speaks to me:

You think you’re waiting for help.For someone to tell you what the right thing to do is.Even though, at the back of your mind, you already know what that is. So all you’re really waiting for, is a time when you’re forced to do it.

Last week-or the week before, Georgia made an amazing post on "It's just how I see things" you should see it. And you should read it. Very inspiring and colorful and uplifting!

 

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“Heartache just stretches
the boundaries of your heart.
I’ll fill it for you.”

— Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson.

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I hate to send you bad vibes. I do. But, things have been going worse for me...I am trying to look up..I am. 

But I keep going further down.

My boyfriend is performing with his band at the SOS music festival! And I can't wait. I am so proud of him. But my heart is not happy. I hope no one else knows how that feels, because it's an ugly feeling. I refuse to believe, though that this world is not a beautiful place. It is a beautiful place. And it has some amazing people. 

My father wrote me a letter, and I am waiting for it to reach me. I expect it to be here by Friday, which is kind of scary, it's all about Mohammed. How cool is my dad anyway? He wrote me a letter!!

Unfinished Business..

• Award: 
  

I was given the “Queen of all things Awe-summm!” award by the AMAZING chick named Hermia!:

 

1. List seven things that make you awe-summm!!!
2. Pass the award on to 7 bloggers.
3. Tag those 7 bloggers.
4. Don’t forget to link the Queen that tagged us.
5. Copy the picture and put it into your sidebar.

Seven things… 

1. I love books and I love to write, I wanted to be a genetic engineer, I ended up with an Economics degree. 
2. I am the eldest of 3 girls and a boy and I love taking them out (I am also the shortest of the 3 girls) also, from my dad's side I have 16 cousins, 5 aunts (one passed away) and 2 uncles. Yay for big families! You should see our gatherings; crazy! 
3. I can be insanely hesitant, or very impulsive. Sometimes both, the hesitancy triggers the impulsiveness.  
4. I am very left handed. I mean it. I have the coordination of a three year old when using my right hand.

5. I can spend HOURS at the bookstore. I feel secure and at home when amongst books.
6. I have the awesome-est boyfriend in the world. And he can sing amazingly.
7. I am very short. 153cm and I have tiny feet..size 36 (you can use a converter to figure that out).

I now award this to the following bloggers…
1. Georgia! I tagged her profile because I couldn't decide which blog I like best!
2.May from Letters from May 
3. Sara, because she just graduated.
4. Alissa from Grace's Birdcage :)
5. Belle
6. Shokoofeh
7. Anna from Little Reminders of Love.

• Announcing the giveaway winner! I decided on two people. Because I couldn't pick. Locuasia and Cait from in company with sparkles :) Please send me your address girls! [s.saye7 [at] gmail [dot] com]

I am sorry for telling some of you I had tagged them without actually publishing the post! *blushes*

Now I'll make a proper post!

Beauty...always

I am writing this as I talk to my sister; Shokoofeh, a very lovely person.
She asked me to smile
and be strong
and be happy

I am writing this when I am in doubt.

but she made me certain, that through the distance,
you can feel.
You can tell if someone is smiling- or not.
And ask them to smile.
And they do.
She asked.
I smiled.

Thank you, sweet girl.
Also, thank you for making me check this. 

And with the lines "you are my sweetest downfall" on repeat in my mind.

I want this song to be played at my wedding:

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me

I miss you blog. I miss you all. I miss everyone I see daily. I have been distant. And emotional. Hormonal.

Do I have to mention how I feel about MJ's death?

On a lighter note! Remember my cousins? Jen and Pete are coming! On Thursday!!! I haven't seen them in 10 and 12 years respectively. I am so EXCITED!!!!

Family Tree

What do you call those who are your mother's cousin's children? Well not children, they are all grown men and women now... ladies and gents. Your great cousins?

You see, my great grandmother was Austrian (mother's side, her name was Marie) and my grandfather had one sister(Kathrine) who lives in England and one brother who lived in France (Tony). He also had one half brother, who lives in the US (Ahmed) and one half sister who lives here in Egypt.(Fathia)

 

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My great-aunt, who lives in England has three children; two sons. One works in South Africa (Uncle Steve) and I get to see every now and then. And one has passed away(Uncle Douglas), and it saddens me to say that I have met him a few, counted times. And a daughter(Auntie Susan)

 

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Uncle Douglas, had three children: One older son(Alex) and twins(Nikki and Peter) who are one year older than I am. I remember, when I was in the UK (probably 10 years ago) I used to color with Nikki and read with Pete, and teach them how to write their names in Arabic..I remember the ice cream truck. All very good, and very distant memories. If you could see the grown men and ladies they are now. You might understand how I am overwhelmed. Because, at one time, they were my favorite people to play with.

Auntie Susan has two children; Jen and Harry. Jen is five years younger and Harry is, I think, 13 now. Now, they have visited Egypt and we visited the Pharonic Village...This side of my family, I may not know very well but love so much because, they are related to my grandfather...and my grandfather, I love so much.

Uncle Steve is a development man. He has studies economics, and I kind of look up to him. I do. He has two children Matthew. And Aida, who I have yet to see, who is half Indian, 1/4 Egyptian 1/4 British and South African by nationality!

 

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You ask me, why am I telling you this?

Because Facebook has reunited us! Alex and Peter have grown to be very hansome young men. Jennifer and Nicole have grown to be very beautiful young ladies. And, I, am still me...only a few curves added. (haha)

We Don't Celebrate Father's Day

so I decided I would celebrate my very own occasion: I resigned!!!!

 

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You see, I figured this act, in iteself, is a luxury! It is one of my very first acts of independance too!

and Happy Summer!

This part of the post is dedicated to Shokoofeh, and the people of Iran;

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Don't ever lose hope, it will be okay. Sooner than you realize.

Pray for them.