Sunday, May 19, 2013

He Loves Me

I knew he loved me the moment he decided to stay.
I knew he loved me when, against all what he believed in, he still gave me that ring;
that he is still young
that he is still not ready
that we haven't been together long enough

I knew he loved me, because I could see it in his eyes. I knew he loved me even at times when I was confused whether he would hang out with me out of fear of confrontation, or because he really wants to see me. He still saw me and that's all that counts.

I knew he loved me when...I know he loves me because he does. Because things like that you just know. I know he loves me but I know that it takes a lot more than love. It takes effort to sustain and maintain a relationship - a long term, serious relationship.

Being engaged is hard, and being engaged without having a definite wedding date is even harder. But I know it's worth it. It's worth it because love is there.

I know he loves me.
He loves me.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Life Lessons

1. People die and that's okay. 
My first experience with death happened when I quite young. I was 15 when my grandfather passed away right in front of me. We were helplessly waiting for an ambulance (that was too late even though we live 5 minutes away from a hospital) as my grandfather was struggling to breath. It affected me and it still is affecting me 10 years later. But I learnt that people die, and life goes on. It has taught me to do nice things for people to remember me with a smile on their face. Years later, my cousin's husband passed away leaving her and two kids under the age of seven behind. He was one of the funniest, most genuine people that I have met. And that's how I remember him. Remembering is good. (that's why I journal/write)

2. You will click with many people along the way, you don't have to be with every single one of them.
Romantically that is. I have made this mistake once, and I can safely say I learnt this the hard way. It was my uncle who told me that, and I will never forget this. You can connect with someone intellectually, and emotionally at times, but that doesn't give you an excuse to sabotage the gift of what you have (given that you are happy with what you have!)

3. Education can take you places.
But it is not everything. Education opens paths for you. Please do care about education and seek it whenever possible.

4. Stand up for who you are and what you believe in.
Being nice doesn't mean that you have to be a doormat. I get to interact with older people that I was taught to respect and have, on several occasions, refrained from stating that I disagree with what they are saying or doing and it has harmed me in several ways. Especially on a professional level.

5. Listen to people. 
Listen to stories that people tell you, there is a lesson waiting to be learnt everywhere. Just make sure you are listening closely.

Monday, May 13, 2013


Two friends of mine started the Clairvoyance Collective inspired by Thought Catalog. The idea was to have Egyptian writers contribute to the Tumblr blog and have people enjoy what we wrote. Some people are not as committed as others. And some people are too busy on some weeks. The moderators felt really bad and stopped sending us schedules. 
I couldn't write without a schedule. Without a plan for the month, without dedicating a day to writing. Some weeks I would feel really inspired and maybe send 2-3 pieces and not just one and some weeks, I could barely write 300 words.

I am not really doing a good job at #BEDM but I am posting this any way. I have a friend who is going something similar where he writes and essay every day and he's doing great things. Find him here.
Am I the only one who needs some sort of structure to follow in order to push myself to do things? I usually need some pressure (most often time pressure)

Friday, May 10, 2013

#BEDM I am Way Behind

I will explain why. May 1st is Labour day and it is a worldwide holiday and it fell on a Wednesday. I took Thursday off. Friday and Saturday are a weekend in Egypt. Sunday was Coptic Easter and Monday was Sham el Nessim, an ancient Egyptian celebration of harvest, which lucky for me we still celebrate in modern day Egypt.

I had six days off and I HAD to do something with them, and I was determined to stay away from my computer. I went to Ain el Sokhna with my best friend and her family friends, it was good, much needed quality time with her.
(I also got stuck in traffic for ten hours trying to get out of a very poorly organized concert - but I a a small car with five other people in it)

The photo below is of the both of us laughing...I am not so sure what it was that was really funny!

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

So I am blogging every day in May

I haven't been blogging nor have I been writing for a long time. And all the changes google has been making with blogger and google reader aren't making me happy at all.
I am considering migrating to wordpress. Or maybe archiving this blog and starting from the very beginning. A fresh new start. Maybe a redesign even (then I would be putting effort into it!)
The thing is, so many people are putting so much effort in their blogs and it makes me feel bad with all the fancy blogs out there. To me, it has always been effortless. It always came naturally...
Maybe if I decide I want to blog full time?
Maybe I don't need to do this to begin with. I don't need to fit in. I do what I will do. I do this so that I can read it later on in my life. So that I can document my life for myself and for others to read, maybe I can help them or inspire them. Maybe I have something to teach. I definitely have something to say.

This is where my rant ends.

I am doing this this month and I am hoping that I would get myself to do it here.

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