Saturday, March 29, 2008
Ever since my freshman year, when I had been the hair hippie, when everyone else would make use of their curling irons every morning. Each month into my college/university/higher education experience would bring me closer to split ends and damaged hair and the need to trim every now and then.
Yet, now, as I graduate, I'm back where I belong to, I am back to who I have always been and who I was always meant to be; the girl with unruly hair.
The Hair Hippie who has hair that still looks good.
Yes, I have to admit, that as my education experience is (almost) coming to an end, I am more and more in touch with myself, with my roots.
I am realizing, bit by bit, who I really am. And, no this is no quarter life crisis.
I am Home.
Where everything is realistic and still has that taste of me, that glimpse of me; The Optimist.
Because yes, it can be bright and rose-y and sunny and splendid.
Dream big. Because that's the way it was meant to be.
Don't just dream; DREAM BIG and never undermine those dreams.
They do come true. That energy within you, the force a desire creates, it drives you towards your dreams, and it makes you find ways to make them come true.
All it takes is for you to believe.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
I came to the realization that I would openly use English curse words and wouldn't mind hearing them, yet ,at the incident of someone using a nArabic curse word, I would cringe...my stomach would literally flip. I jus tthink they're the most vulgar thing in the world. Despite it being my mother-tongue, I don't use them.
Monday, March 17, 2008
became clear to me, I have to grow up- eventually.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
My AIESEC Elections Speech (3 years ago):
In his book, "The Alchemist", Paolo Coelho wrote; "There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible. Fear of failure". Only now, out of experience, that I believe so much in this.
During the past few days, I was this close to giving up on the life-changing experience this one is. I have talked to my friends about it, I was worried about not having a plan and not being good enough- I was basically procrasitnating; one thing I'm really good at!
But AIESEC taught me to believe in myself and to have a vision; my own version of "peace and fulfillment of humankind's potential"- I have a purpose.
Even if it is a vague one, not yet really specific...
But I know one thing;
Once I get this position (if I do), I will make this my mini-vision; as specific and to the point as can be.
My language AS notes (5 years ago)
"No, I don't think anyone should be given the right to carry a weapon for self-defence, because that would be as if we're telling people to kill. And turning a country or the whole world to nothing but a sinful bloody grave that does more harm to the living than it does to the dead. I wouldn't want to live in such a plague and I certainly don't think anyone would want to"
"When the occupation is from your own fellow Egyptians; it's unbearable. Egypt has been occupied for so long; by foreigners until a radical change- 1954 to be occupied by a local occupant, to be oppressed by a ruler of the same origin, same Egyptian blood.
Controlled by fake democracy and make-believe fairness- "for the people's good". When the identity is deformed , and minds hypnotized, brainwashed with dictator-ideas. When the Egyptian is turned into a cowardly being that won't resist injustice, that would avoid "problems"" through bribary and lies- corruption. When human rights are violated by the authorities and civil rights denied. When freedom is a crime.
I hear her calling, crying for help and the screams are getting louder, I'm coming, oh beloved homeland! I'm here, and I won't remain silent, no fear will be planted in this mind of mine. "